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Pictures altogether!

2012-02-15T23:49:00.000-08:00

Ain't it lovely? More pics altogether! Laters...;)

A perfect Valentine with my Valentine

2012-02-15T18:47:00.000-08:00

Today was a fairytale! I can truly connect with that! It started of on a Saturday, Jarance & Sophie's wedding, I felt so loved struck and happy for the newly wed couple! :)It was all sweet. I was just having doubt about my own wedding, it is not even near. I am indeed a typical lady. I wore on too many hats and get myself worried for nothing. After that blissful wedding dinner, call it a night. As we have got to attend my Cell Group Leader, Cath's wedding in Sg. She is more than a Leader to me, someone I can confide in so openly and seek womanly advice, support and direction. She meant & make a difference in my life!

We started our journey the next morning. We had breakfast at Old Town White Coffee, which I quite like for something simple & happy on a lazy day. Eggs, Bread & Coffee! Perfect combo to kick start the day. We had fun on our journey towards Singapore, half way there lo and behold. Terror strikes! He asked me about passport. Then I was perplexed! I forgot to bring my passport! OH NOOOO!!! And we are reaching Sg in another hour and a half. Can you imagine what I felt! I was just speechless and dumbfounded by myself. The worst thing is, I felt so horrible and also am afraid he wouldn't be happy as it is troublesome, very! :(
Me: errr I forgot my passport!!!
He: Are you testing me again?
Me: No, I really forgot to bring! So sorry I was just so busy and thinking too much after Jarance's wedding, & I am super excited to go Sg to attend Cath's wedding!
He: Turn back, let's find a u-turn from Muar and turn back.

To my surprised, he wasn't angry at all. Yet, he was so patience and kind to me when I forgot my passport. I just felt so loved. Then we journeyed back all the way to Subang again!!! (FYI, I can never get out of Subang Jaya, I was born in SJMC, kindergarten in Tadika Tom Anne, which is now a petrol station :( ,Primary & Secondary School in Ss 14, College & University in Prime & SEGi, Workplace in Glenmarie & Wisma Consplant & now Leisure Commerce Square, the only time i left Subang was for School of Theology in Sg which was awesome). We reached back Subang Jaya which was already mid afternoon, we decided to just change our clothes and prepare for the wedding dinner. We then started our journey AGAIN, throughout the journey I was SO GUILTY, but he was just himself, a gentleman. At the same time, i was thinking if God is on my side, that it was a test to show me that he is indeed a great man, because never in my entire life i will forget something so important or crucial, i do admit i do not pick on the petty stuff but never crucial or urgent matters. Throughout the journey, we started to get restless and tired and the journey never seems to end, we are like journeying from 10am till 5pm at that time and still the journey is far ahead. So I started to entertain him, acting like a China girl trying to speak in Chinese with my China slang which i never thought I could(he said i have improved ;b)and we snacked on Chocholates the whole journey, how cool is that! It was really fun though! We really had plenty of time sharing and talking as we are stuck in an'island'(car)!

Well, we reached Woodland Custom at about 8 15pm. We continue striving, and finally reached Crowne Plaza Hotel, Changi for the dinner at exactly 915pm. It was sooo late!!! But am really really glad that we are able to make it just in time to witness Cath & Adam giving speech on the stage. HappY! At the same time, took pics with her YAy, catch up with all my Sg friends which i make during School of Theology! I really miss everyone of them! Each of them means a lot to me! They were just there when I was away from home! The feelings and memories I had and grew with them when I was there. I hope I meant a lot and am special to them too!
Dan was indeed awesome, we just had a few bites of proper food that day, truly truly appreciate what he did.

We then rushed back to my uncle's place at Jurong, which is the other end of the green line in Sg, about 45 mins drive from Changi. As i have a curfew, 12 midnight it is! Managed to rush back on time. Had my bath while he was getting to know my uncle. Then he had his bath, while i was snacking on the remainders of CNY cookies.
After that he just slept in the guest room, while i slept with my cousin. (Note, it is not justifiable if we are found sleeping in a room together although it is not like what you imagined, ahem! Although in this era, it is a norm or culture to have sleep-ins with your partner and etc, but just try to avoid if it is possible)

The following day, all fresh and ready for an exciting day together, while we had great time with my cousin sister for a little breakie at uncle's place before meeting up with his sister for proper breakfast. We then packed our stuff and droved to Scott's mall somewhere in Orchard. We had Wild Honey for breakfast! It was a fun time and bonding time together with his sister as well. His sister intention was to celebrate his birthday. The breakfast was awesome! I had two poaches of eggs on a break, English it is called. While he had Carribean and his sister Canadian, if i recalled. Theirs was sweet and savoury pancakes, with fruits, honey, syrup and etc. We had our Lattes as well. Couldnt live without it. Photos and more photos after that. Send his sister off, and we are ready to roam the town.

We had a great time recollecting memories of Singapore while we were there for SOT, most of the time doing our assignments, preparing sermons and just hanging out though I didnt know he actually likes me. LOL! My feeling wasn't developed then as I really am dove-focused on my purpose in theology, God! It was all good and I am just so blessed that he has been dove-focused on me and is so faithful and loyal to me all this while. Praise God!

We had a great time walking around town in Sg, then we headed to Esplanade, parked there, had our walk to Marina Bay Sands, recalled that he actually asked me to be his gf during our walk there. I told him no. After awhile, while walking to Coffee Bean in Marina, he asked me again to be his gf. To be honest, i was irritated as i thought he wasn't listening. As i told him, i am not the type that will get into a rship so soon. i am not sure you are the one for me. Moreover it was only a few months then that i got to know him. It takes ages for my suitor to pursue me and still couldnt get me. But i truly appreciate having him in my life at that moment though! Ahh Sweet memories.

As we both love desserts, I decided to go for High Society to try out the desserts there! It was provocative. Desserts simply is larger than life! We prayed over his birthday! We lingered around there and it is time for the Singapore flyer! Woo hoo!!! Was actually thinking to sit the flyer with him or not. As it is really something special for me! As i only wanted to sit with 'the one'. So I was really confused if i should sit with him, coz what if he is not the one it will not be special and i couldnt have my first experience with the one. After that i cried a lil while thinking too much. i guess it was just a security issue on my part. I wasn't sure and secure. He managed to console and assure me that we will make it work. as the bible says he who finds a wife finds a good thing. So he has found me. While i was jokingly saying yeah so i need to wait, what if 'the one' hasn't found me. I somehow managed to be secured at that moment. So lo and behold we sat the flyer! :D it was truly an amazing experience! The view was spectacular. We exchanged our presents on the flyer as well! :D I gave him his favourite Starbucks mug and he gave me a watch which is so my type!

After all the fun we had, it is time to get going. Back to the land which is famous for 'Makan'. Malaysian's favoure sport-Makan! While we journeyed, we prayed half the journey. It was amazing to be able to pray together! A prayer together makes the couple stay! As he was really really sleepy, we prayed for a safe journey as well and was precautious on the road. It was late and dangerous! Thank God for his protection over us and journey mercy all the way back home! Really Thank God! I felt so loved these few days!

On a Valentine's Day itself, i took leave because i needed to re-organised my thoughts and feelings and have a good rest before i can actually work. I got a sms from my colleague telling me there is a surprise for me. Wow! Still another surprised! :D While i spent Valentine's day with my brother later part for late lunch at 4pm. Headed back home and get ready for Relationship Series by PS Wayne Chang at 8pm. Wanted to have dinner with Dan but the traffic was heavy. So postponed his birthday dinner. What better way to spend Valentine's Day than to be in the House of God listening to a relationship sermon.It ended with a birthday celebration for him at TGIF. Gave him another surprised- a birthday card and a band.
We had a wonderful time altogether! Lovely!

The following day, i woke up excited to work for all the wrong reaason, hehe that is i am expecting to see my surprise! Wow, I had roses this time! 12 whites & 12 reds! hmm, is it a sign I am gonna get marry on 12/12/12? :b There's a card by him! A poem written by him! He can really write poem too! It meant a lot to me as he said i taught him about love!!! He is really thoughtful and generous! I just felt so pampered, so loved, so blessed this Valentine's Day!I felt like a precious princess!:D It seems my Valentine's day lasted for three days! :D I can't stop thanking God, praising Him and feeling so loved by Him! Through the love of Christ, I am loved. Indeed through his affections which makes me feel that I am loved and adored deeply by God. God, is truly amazing! He answers all my prayers including tiny lil ones. He knows me personally!He thinks the world of me! I love you very much Jesus Christ!!! Awesome!

An admirable wedding(Jarance&Sophie)

2012-02-11T10:06:00.000-08:00

Indeed it was an amazing wedding! :D My cell group leader is married!:) congrats to the man! Also my good friend is married! Congrats to the beautiful bride!:) Truly it is a beautiful occasion to watch both my high school friend & cell leader bonded as one! Of all the wedding I guess I pretty much like this the most. As foremost I witness my cell leader, a man with passion and great understanding and sensitivity towards the need of my friend, his wife! While my friend is a caring and wonderful person!:) I watched them grew in their relationship. Their love story! Truly I am more than happy to witness them. I pray for a heaven on earth marriage for both of them, a relationship with Jesus at the centre and happily ever after!:D Such a beautiful wedding, a holy matrimony in the garden, a garden wedding basically, their names floating on the lake, letting go of doves which symbolized loyalty to their only partner in life! Cocktail with lovely cupcakes and tasteful tantalizing desserts and cakes! Amazing! Blessings from pastor, witness from family, relatives, church friends, colleagues and school mates! Wonderful Chinese dinner with detailed interesting video clips of their love story and the clips of the crash gate inside jokes!;) Lastly, a coaster for remembrance with their names on it. Simply awesome!;)Wishing them a wonderful moment always too!
Time to sleep!:)Another Cell group leader in Sg's wedding! While I was there for my theology course she took care of me as her own!:) Admire her as well!:)

2012-02-09T08:52:00.000-08:00

Father I am also very stressed with my work. It is not fulfilling! I have always imagined myself travelling around the world, touching lives and moving hearts, I just don't know how I can even get there though o received confirmation of prophecies. I would love to be a full time coz it is no difference as I have acted like one years ago. I don't know how to even get there. Money is an issue. Definitely. I am really not enjoying the thongs I am doing how long more do I need to face paper work when I should be facing people! I should be out there speaking into people's life living life to the fullest. I can't focused on my work coz I have learnt them all. It is no different and it is not fulfilling. I am just getting backward. I stayed on because I sense my boss is closed to you though she is not easy as she is single and demanding! Sigh! I am clueless. I honestly do know you are with me though! Help me oh lord to wait on you and to be more patience. Help me! Help me in every way to see through your eyes and not mine. Help me to sleep peacefully God. I have been having insomnia for my entire life. It is affecting my health and my backache is getting worst..

I don't know

2012-02-09T08:31:00.000-08:00

Father I am not satisfy truly! He just don't seem to understand me! I thought he knew me as I am already so transparent and honest! How honest can I be. He has been knowing me for a year now! I was full of hope and love and expectation from the relationship. But it lasted just a day honestly. He just don't seem to understand! At first I want our relationship to be stable first to maintain low profile but then he just told the whole world oh yeah I'm exaggerating. Then I felt so much pressure and unnecessary uncertainty as we meet only once a week when we enter into courtship with people all around. No dating moments. Alright I can tolerate and accept. Hoping for the best. After weeks into it, I just felt we do not even have the honey moon or head over heals kind of love like every couple will have when they just began a relationship. The time is really ticking and we are not growing like a couple. I just felt being neglected and it is like a norm to him. I asked to take a break last Sunday, 29 Jan as I couldn't take it anymore it is really affecting me personally! He really really don't seem to understand me. I want us to remain as friends coz seriously we are like friends and I do not FEEL like I am in a relationship. It is just the title. He improved so much after that Sunday.I really appreciate it. But he is really trying his best, it is so stressful for him as we are different. I felt so sad that he tried so hard. What if one day he gives up after trying so much while I just fell deeply.I didn't complain that he is tired, I am just feeling that he is always tired with work or some other focus that he is not fully concentrating on me when we meet which is once a week. And if he is so tired already, still meet me do you think I will be happy to see him in such a condition! Come on! Do you think I am cold blooded. I am mindful you stay faraway from me, and if you have to drive all the way back with your drowsiness what if anything were to happen? Am I not responsible? Can I live with the guilt? Touch wood of course! You can't differentiate whether I am joking or am serious, sometimes all I want is for you to be sensitive to my feelings. I am just so stressed out. To me it doesn't matter what the world thinks, if we truly like one another why do we have to care what others thinks. Sigh I just don't know what to do honestly. We can't seem to relax or enjoy one another. Now the whole world seems to know. What if we don't worked out? I will be ashamed to step back into church as I am really never open minded about a relationship. I am worried on his part as well. What if he couldn't take another relationship that didn't worked out! Can he be strong. Father I so want a first official relationship. I decided to know him better coz I felt he is a right man before you. We could grow and honor you together. You know how much I have been reserving myself, You know how much I have been wanting a heaven on earth marriage. Aside I think he is so insecure, you know I was so loyal throughout, never in my mind I dare to cross the boundaries to hang out with any of my guy friends which I have as I am a bit boyish as I have two brothers at home. I don't know anymore.

A new beginning of a deeper friendship (Going on to Perfection)

2011-12-29T08:14:00.000-08:00

A new beginning of a deeper friendship (Going on to Perfection)

I remembered we were hanging out
A week before Christmas
You confessed that
All you want for Christmas
Is me
I was happy to know that
Then I playfully dared you
If you were to express it publicly
On your Facebook
I will consider you
Who knows after a great eventful Christmas
You asked me
Again for the third time in a year
To be your girlfriend
I was blushing on the outside
While having butterflies on the inside
I teasingly muttered if you were serious
You haven’t posted it on your Facebook
My intention was to see if he is man
Man enough for me to consider
I got quite anxious
Wondered if he really would
I changed my statement
If you post it on Facebook
I may not be your girlfriend
If I would,
It requires
High commitment, High responsibility
Not forgetting High Maintenance
It is for a lifetime not a temporary basis
Everything of yours will be mine
While mine remains the same
Truly, a Man he is!
He was waiting for the right time
To express how much he wanted me
Lo and behold, 11.58pm on a 2011 Christmas
He posted his shout out to the world
He held my hand and my fingers reacted
While he said so now you are mine
I replied the opposite from my hand language
He then said you are!
What makes you think so?
Because you responded this time with
With your hand gripping mine
I asked why a day after Christmas?
He said you wanted to put God first
So I am the next prior to Jesus Christ
But how can you propose without a flower?
Then as I was searching for my house keys
To head out of his car back home
To call it a night
Not just any night but a wonderful one
Whilst he pulled out something from his car boot
Hand it over to me
A Bouquet of White Lilies
Oh boy! I was really impressed by him!
8 stalks of varieties of Oriental White Lilies
It marks a new beginning
Of a deeper friendship
With additional two buds yet to blossom
Going on to perfection. ;)

Aimless & Restless!

2011-09-13T10:02:00.000-07:00

Sigh Father,

I guess I am just plain aimless and restless now!
Now what? What's the next chapter of my life?
Father, you are the creator of my life!
You are the one in which my life will unfold in your time!
Father, I am without a clue now! I don't know where I am heading to!
I don't know if I should be staying put or to a greener grass!
Should I be in the corporate world?
I know for sure I'll climb the ladder real fast and be successful!
As Im really focus when I put my mind to it! Nothing can stop me!
I owe you a million thanks Father, for always helping me to excel in both my previous companies!
For such an offer never before in history! For a six mths study break!
What better offer could a company give! Father, I thank you for my promotion!
But I sacrificed it for you, coz I'm hungry for a deeper relationship with you!
To experience your signs and wonders! I did it for you! I'm happy that you are pleased with me for the six months!:)
Father, by faith I resigned again, you knew it! You planned my future! Ive given up my bonuses, increment, job security and a sense of achievement!
Father, you know me! I'm quite a fast paced person! I couldn't rest! I'm a thinker! I'm a worrywart! I pray for your plan to unfold in my life continuously! I pray that you give me rest in your timing! Not being impatience! For the best is yet to come!
Father, now I'm really lost! I do not know what is ahead of me! I couldn't stand a day without being secure!
Father, you have spoken so much to me for the past six months! You have praise me! You are pleased with me!
I am truly happy to hear and to make you proud of me!
Father, I need more of you! More of your grace! More of your mercy!
More of your love! It is your love that leads me on in life! It is your touch that leads me on!
Father, now that I am back here and out of the theology school!
Will I still see your love, grace and mercy even more significant in my life?
Will you continue to work your signs and wonders in my life?
Father, you put your burden of lost souls in my life! 90% of my friends doesn't know you or loves you!
If you don't work in my life? How are you expecting me to reach out?
Father, you know I do not have much Christian friends!
I might get burned out or even lose my interest in you though I doubt that would ever happen! I'm not taking, not gonna risk taking you for granted! I pray I'll always have your heart! I pray I will always have a heart of God! I pray for your gift of gentle spirit in me to be used effectively for you! Father, unfold my path! Give me rest! Help me not to break down!
I have two interviews tomorrow! I pray I'll be able to make an impact and difference to all the interviewers! I pray you will show me which job to take! I'm quite interested in the position of floral consultant, but it's really degrading, don't you think? I could soar high in the corporate world! Oh father, I pray if you want me to work in Singapore, I pray I'll be able to aced the interview for another position too! I commit all 3 interviews into your hands and many more to come! Closed the doors you think it's not for me!
Open the one and only, you think are meant for me! Amen! Lord I love you! Give me good rest! Let your words be upon my mouth! Let me shine for you! I pray for an awesome, fruitful day tomorrow and the rest of my days! Amen!
Father, you please help me! :( woo! Huk huk!!!

Just as I am, You completed me!

2011-08-02T10:48:00.000-07:00

Just as I am aimless,
You gave me assurance.
Just as I am barren,
You gave me bountifully.
Just as I am clueless,
You gave me certainty.
Just as I am desperate,
You gave me determination.
Just as I am empty,
You gave me empowerment.
Just as I am fearful,
You gave me a future.
Just as I am gentle,
You gave me greatness.
Just as I am hopeless,
You gave me hope.
Just as I am insecure,
You gave me importance.
Just as I am Jen-Li,
You gave me Jesus Christ.
Copyrighted as usual-JLoh!;)

Jeremiah29:11

In the midst of it

2011-08-01T10:38:00.000-07:00

Hmm, i havent been writing for quite sometime. I guess I am just going to start writing again? =b I was thinking of writing a book ' An extraordinary drama queen '. Wonder if it could sell well? It's going to be a book of my life experiences as an ordinary person and yet so many extraordinary circumstances and experiences that turns me into a drama queen with my simplicity still intact, it makes it extraordinary.

As I'm writing this, i just sense that peace is filling my heart. It is like a stream of living water just flowing down and washing away all my troubles and burdens I have been carrying.

God in this darkest hour of night
I have been thinking about you
Your loves overpouring into the deepest of my soul
Healing my every brokeness in every parts of me
Every scars being lifted up
my heart being renewed & whole once again
God you're an amazing father
How can I compare you with anyone?
Truly your love has filled my heart and it is your love that conquers all my fears and my darkness
Your love so strong like a tower of refuge and strength for me
I lean on you forevermore
Ps: I love you my dearest Father!
A song i will sing for you always
In the morning, you will hear my voice
Direct my paths daily as I put you first
Bring me joy and overflow me with your love
How sweet is the sound of your whisperst
The stillness of night is where i could hear you
Your voice is so sweet and loving
How could I ever be away from your presence?
Recharge me whenever I am tired
Take away my heavy burden
I lay it down before you
Pick it up like how you carry this world in your hands!
I love you so much Father, How beautiful! How wonderful! How glorious!
I see your tender, loving face!
You're all I adore!

2011

2011-01-01T07:02:00.000-08:00

Dear Jesus, I commit my 2011 plans, dreams and visions into your hand Lord! I pray for a great, fruitful dream come true year. I pray for it to be all-rounded and well-balanced in all areas of my lives!!! Father, as 2010 was a rough and busy year for me, i pray that this yr will be an awesome yr! Father, i want to be very successful and perfect in all areas of my lives. Father, you know i loves perfection! Therefore i pray for your work in progress in me to continuously perfecting me to be the person you desire for me to be! It's my wish as well! Father besides this, i really want you to bless me in Relationship area. Father i waited and am still waiting for the best prince you have in mind for me! I want a wonderful happily ever after marriage! Father, you know how much i've gone thru throughout my life i just didnt brood about what im going thru. Father, only you know what i went thru. Father, i've a desire in my life to have a happy marriage, to be the best mum one can ever be and to be a wonderful wife that my husband would treasure and appreciate me and give praise to you for having me in his life! Father, i do not want any guy but the guy you have in mind for me, someone that would loves you and put you first. You have test me enough father. I've past the test and now i really want my prayers to be answered. Father, i'm also quite sad when people kept asking me when am i going to have a bf? how could i possibly answer them? If i were to tell them am waiting for your timing and for your best, they might think im Jesus fanatic u know!!! =S plus they are non christians, they might be very offended if i were to choose you over them! =( Father, im also sick of the advice- don't be so choosy jen-li, noone is perfect! yea of coz i know that none of us are perfect, but i still need time to choose da right one right? Besides i don't know if they are going to stick to me in times of needs or troubles or husband material. Father, as you know im quite gentle and weak at heart, i really cant afford to get into a relationship if it's not a relationship that's gonna lead to commitment and marriage! =] Father, i have a dream this year 2011- it is to get married, live happily ever after and to build a generation of God-fearing children! A perfect home in you, my Lord!!!All glory to you! =D In your precious name, Lord Jesus Christ, signed, sealed and delivered. Amen!

Two is Better than one by Jen-Li & Sean Lon

2010-11-07T05:27:00.000-08:00

Unfairness

2010-07-20T10:12:00.000-07:00

Life is plain unfair. And im da forsaken and unwanted and unloved daughter of yours! Why do you ever place me on earth? Whatever i did or obey cant get your attention your blessings your care your love? Im always neglected by you father! You said you love me! :'( then why is everythin so unfair for me huh? Why? Am i not good enough? Did i not tithe or pledge enough? Did i not give you my time?
Father you're just plain unfair to me! Cant you bless me? Why some others get more love and attention and blessing from you? Why? While i dont? Im just plain sad!

It's a process..:)

2010-07-10T18:50:00.000-07:00

I just realised i love babies n serving i just dont fancy her comparing she serves more..:-P

Part two must release..

2010-07-10T08:46:00.001-07:00

My heart was thinkin u 1me2ask my family2purposely stop d family outin n drop me ther now?crazy!then i recalled,i checked mail n remember my duty was last wk n tiz comin tues,so i asked her i tot is tues?she said read ur email i juz sent n tmw u on duty 8am n u duty on tues oso!my gosh so lastmin changes!i told her i cant im tired!she said i serv more than u!what kinda answer is tat?u want u servela how can u compare?i replied her ur so hardworkin.i cant am burned out,mon chinese class,tues church,wed church,thur class,frid cell,sat nursery,sun church.she din reply aft tat!so i sms again-im servin tmw n tues!she din reply!:(wanted2say hello im a local ok i'v got family n frens plus am a full time employee ok!sigh,seriously ther goes my day i was so guilty n so unhappy n so pissed off that i complain whole time2my poor mum!dont last min change2inform im nt holdin a blackberry ok i cant access2mail24hrs!my only sat gone!i gotta b ther by8am n ere am i stil upset!aih,hate myself as wel!i flared up easily!guilty!

Pissed off till i cant sleep now

2010-07-10T08:37:00.000-07:00

Sigh im just so pissed off right now till i cant sleep! I seriously dont like last minute changes man! Was supposed to watch eclipse to accompany my friend as she insist i watch v her so i promised to watch v her since last week n i wasted my only weekend waitin for her,cos she's got found some other guy companion tat could bring her elsewhere so she turned me down!alright fine!i quite happy tat i could spend my time v my family!:) so i went to mid valley v my family,just arrived there,dunno what's their probla,sms me saying do u know you're on duty today?my gosh how would i know right of your last min changes?make up your mind please!i replied sorry din know n am out v family now!she replied why you all dun read emails one?everyone also dunno their duty!crazy how would people know if you change schedule last min!so i replied why dont you send on facebook tat way ther's no excuses?she replied so how now your on duty?i replied her sorry i cant make it as im v family now in mv i replace tomorrow!

.....release.....

2010-07-10T06:18:00.000-07:00

Sigh God what else do you want from me? I've given up everything for you? Im not like you, you can give up your son for me..im very grateful and i appreciate it deeply!but im only human,i've given up for you da best i had! Besides tat you've taken all my time,i hardly had time for anythin else..it's so mundane,strictly work work work,besides work it's church activities n chinese classes,weekends it's church n nursery,i really am empty u know!now im beginning to think if this goes on for years i might not hv a bf cos i've got no time to date at all!:(sigh..then how am i gonna even know if d man ur gonna blessed me v wil add value to my life?you know me well GOd im a simple person as long as im loved,adored by everyone n am happy everyday n for me to bring joy to ppl i can even bring da moon for you..sweat i dunno what im writing also..

Awesome Asia Conference 2010!

2010-05-31T02:53:00.000-07:00

Am soo glad that i finally made it to AC2010. At first, i thought i couldn't make it there as I've already taken 3 days leave on May itself for Langkawi in May'10 with cell leader & Sophie along v Shan (my female colleague) while Ac is a whole stretch from 26-31st apr! Approaching April, i realized there's Wesak day, a Public Hols!!! (wee) Then i thought I can still make it to AC provided there's transportation on a thursday night! (LOL there really is one, Jolene was like telling Mindy, this jen-li ya whatever she says she gets..hehe coz i was just telling her im gonna go on thurs nite, and she asked Chc provide transport on thurs? Nt tues & Wed? I said no idea shud hv? (If nt i can't make it lor coz my mum is protective she won't allow me to travel independently without a group)To cut long story short, AC was awesome, magnificient, marvelous & impactful tho it was jz 3 days!!!

Friday 11.15am 28/5/10~ Ps Reinhard Bonnke

You'll plunder hell to populate heaven for Calvary's Sake!!! =D (Awesome quote tat will reign in my heart)
Faith is the currency in heaven!
God doesn't sit with sitters but go with goers, so Get Going!!!
He joked about the less holy spirit v hv the more coffee and cakes we need to keep the chc growing. The point is there's no substitute in/for Christ!!! =D
Matthew 28: 19,Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit! (This is a Statement of Fact!!!)
God spoke to him that he could give him a million dollars but he suddenly cried out to God he wants a million souls instead!!! =D So God sent him to Africa to be a great evangelist all around!!! =D
He also said that there's no condition at all, God is with you always!!! He talks about a river of fire that will flow to everyone in AC!!! At the upper room in Pentecost, He talks about seeing everyone with a flame of fire above their head. Some flames are bigger, more brighter and some are just a small flame but are full of the holy spirit, it's no comparison, just that each of us are unique individual created by God to carry his purpose!!!

7.30pm, Ps Kong Hee
Acts 2:17“‘And in the last days it shall be, God declares, that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh, and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams;
Mark 16:5 And entering the tomb, they saw a young man sitting on the right side, dressed in a white robe, and they were alarmed.(Jesus is alive)
He pin-point about 5 basics as a Believer-
1. Worship: Learn to worship & love God
2. Relationship: Learn to love one another and be caring
3. Discipleship: Here's where ur discipled to disciple
4. Ministry: After being trained/ discipled, you are now ready to serve ppl
5. Evangelism: You share the gospel to win the lost souls for Christ!
The youth today are our future generation!
1. We need to be present( to the youth)
He meant that we need to be ever present for the youth, to just be there for them, hang out with them, learn to know them and care for them, be sincere to them.
2. Be consistent ( to the youth)
We need to be consistent towards them and their progress and learn to be concern. They need guidance.
3. Be patience ( to the youth)
We need to be more patience towards them and be more ready to tolerate and understand them.
4. Be accepting (to the youth)
We need to advise them at the same time giving them choices, respect their decisions
even if they are making the wrong ones. Let them dream & go after their dreams, let them fall once in awhile and picked them up so that they will learn & grow!
5. Love one another
John 13:34-35
34“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.
35By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”
We must become loving and caring as a christian!

29/5/10 Ps Reinhard Bonnke- River of fire/Evangelism preaching
Glory of God!

30/5/10, 540pm, Ps AR Bernard
This was what i was praying for, my answered prayer, before i went Ac, i was feeling exactly like what AR Bernard was describing, feeling suicidal and getting along the way of ppl, feeling negative & my feelings overwhelm me so badly till i need to pray for healing to take place in me, & i was so looking forward for a transformed and changed life after attending AC)

We do hv a set of core values, core purposes and worldview. It's cosmology. We need to have a clearly articulated worldview
(As a church and as a believer)
What is life? What is death? What is heaven? What is hell? What is reality? What is spirituality? What is good? What is evil? What is true? What is not true?
All these views are shaped by the background and family we're living in, the society we are in today. You need to embrace or reject, all those you have discovered which you are not!
It takes time to develop the world view as it functions on a subconscious level and world view shapes you without even you realizing it.

Publicans/ Sinners
Jesus Christ
Values
(Honor)
(Honoring those you want them to be saved
by respecting their decisions,
by honoring them you begin to built good relationship with them
& thus able to bring value of Christ to them)
Church/ Religious Leaders

God already knows bout your life, God loves you and understand you! Once you understand you are going to live with that and be transformed into His image. Every talent is God given!

There's 2 things you need to to learn about.
1.Self-esteem-Feelings
2. Self-concept-You normally get your self-concept out of world view
When Adam sinned, these 2 enters!

Today, God wants to give us a new self-concept(which is our own true-self, the self before Adam sinned, which is the self in the Image of God/ God's original intention for you to be)
-Your self-esteem is how you feel about yourself.
-Your self-concept is the person you think you should be or could be! So you have a concept of self and esteem of self!
Imago-dei is the image of God!
If you look at yourself in the image of God, you will have a strong self concept and you will feel good about yourself.
People suffer because the difference between these 2 are so great. The greater the distance between self-esteem and self-concept, the lower your productivity and motivation in life.
*So how do God deal with it?*
God is introducing a new self-concept! He gave us a new self-concept and take us back to the image of God!
With the word of God & as the new self-concept begin to rise up, your feelings changes (your self-esteem), you begin to see things differently, you begin to be more positive and believe all things are possible!
2 Corinthians 5: 17-19
17Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
18All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation:
19that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation.

Reconciliation: Reconciliation is bringing and restoring man to his true self-concept in the image of God to be more fruitful and productive to carry on his purpose and original intention for you

When God brings you back to yourself, you begin to see things that God sees, you begin to see things in His perspective, in His image.

Self-concept will free you from feelings of inadequacy, insecurity, negativity, so that you will begin to look at your talent and to pursue who you should be and who you could be!

Reconciliation back to your true self will determine your productivity/ achievement on earth. Luke 15:17.“But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have more than enough bread, but I perish here with hunger!

*Your circumstances doesn't determine what happens to you, it is your mind, your thought that determines how you react! ( Talk yourself out of negativity, talk differently, think differently) When others are saying what can't be done, you said what CAN be done!!!

Luke 15:18 'I will get up and go to my father, and will say to him, "Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in your sight

When you have a positive mindset & frame, you ARE not afraid of Failure/ rejection because when you do meet with Failure or Rejection, you begin to LOOK for another OPPORTUNITY/ DOOR!!!
New self can endure hardship!
New Self begins to take over feelings and dictate your old self of how it should be and where it can go in life!
New self has self-determination! Self-determination doesn't allow negative feelings to be registered in yourself! * We are more than a conqueror, We can do all things thru Christ who strengthens us, We are an overcomer!!! * Hallelujah! Amen!
It is the self determination that comes from the Image of God!

We are all sitting in the imagination of a man who has grasp self concept in his life, a man who is not afraid to dream dreams, to reached out to the world. ( that man is Ps. Kong Hee). He believes in us so why shouldn't we believe in ourselves?

That is how we will change the world? I have the image of God! I am the image of God! I am not waiting for heaven but I am gonna do something in this life, on earth!!! Amen!

We are a model today, model of Christ, model citizen of Malaysia,our society, model in y model in your workplace, model in your family, model among your friends!!!

P/S: Father, i thank you so much for being able to attend AC 2010. It was blast and it was totally awesome!!! Father, i thank you so much for speaking to me thru this message, father truly the best is the last, father i pray that you will continuously change me and mold me to be the person you so desire for me to be, father you rebuke me in every wrong area, and father i pray for my life to be transformed to be more like you day by day, i pray for a very positive mindset of who i am in you, i pray to see myself in your image and your lens, i pray for a greater God-given new self concept in me, i pray that you'll not give up on me no matter how or what, i pray for healing to take place in me, i pray ill always be upbeat bright and living for you, i pray for my life to shine so brightly to be carrying your glory in me, i pray that if i ever backslide you'll bring me back stronger and closer to you and it's just a time to reflect. i pray that this prayer will be heard by you everyday!!! Amen!!! =b In Jesus name, Amen!!!)

Happy Birthday Queen~

2010-03-18T07:40:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Dearest Mummy!!!
All the wonderful blessings falls continuously on u!

To one who holds
the sweetest name
and adds pleasure to life
who shares my joy
comforter when am sad
the greatest friend
i've ever had
long live the queen
for there's no other
that can replace her
in my heart < 3

Somehow we always say the least
to those we love the best
And hope our thoughts
are understood.
Although they're unexpressed
That's why it means
so very much,
when days like this are here
To say how very much
you're loved
each day throughout the year.

Happy Birthday Mom!

lots of < 3
Daughter of yours~

Leader's meeting-christmas celebration

2009-12-22T06:42:00.000-08:00

Dear God,

I'm just sooo soooo happy that my mortal love the present i gave her..lol coz i myself think it's such a beautiful necklace that i would wanna keep hehee..=b and im so thankful that u told me to choose that necklace, even more thankful that when i asked u what u want me to write in her card that would touch her heart! I'm just so glad that i followed!!! =] hehe..

the deal is i havent met her or have a clue of who is she before this, i just wrote Dear ___________,

Merry Christmas and i hope u have a great one.

PS: i hope u like my present so much coz u are so gorgeous like the necklace. i just want u to know that u are the apple in God's eyes. You are so precious to Him. You are beautiful! you are fearfully and wonderfully made.

Then i signed off with lots of love,
Jen-li.

i went asking around looking for her, then i found my angel, her name is bonolulu i guess, she gave me something big, lol im sure its a good gift so i thank her and she ask me to open the present there and then hehe but i said i cant wait to go back to open coz i wanna enjoy the moment instead of opening now..hehee =] she gave me a handbag..wee i love it..gonna use it to work!!! =] sling bag my type of working bag hehe coz i need to cross road..wouldnt want it to fly off my shoulder while i run!

oh yeah, then i ask her hey who is Fiona, she pointed her to me, and i asked her 'Hey u like my present? it's gorgeous rite? she teared and said yeah i love it so muchh, i was just telling them how much i love your present..she said thank u and merry christmas again and thanks for the present..

lol i was so touchedddd!!! That was the best christmas gift i think i'll receive this christmas..=] i just LOVE to see ppl being touched and blessed!!! =] Thank you God i pray ull use me to touch even more lives to be a blessing to every single soul around me, to give me the capacity and the capability to be a blessing to everyone!!! =]

Ps: i was surprised that i've got 3 presents actually, hehe but they so jeluz they took back one of it saying i got so many ed..when each one suppose to have a gift only..hehee then my leader tease me bout gettin so many gifts and i said they took back one..my leader said how can..ppl wanna bless u and give u how can they take back..hehe since my leader said like that..im happy enuff ed..wee..don't need the other gift hehe coz anyway i dunno what is inside the gift..=b heheeee

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Merry Christmas Greetings!~

2009-12-21T05:57:00.000-08:00

lol..was just so into the mood of Christmas till we came out with the idea of having our on video recorded!!! hehe =] enjoy and have a merry merry Christmas!!! *wink*

Ji Mui/ Bridesmaid

2009-12-17T22:19:00.000-08:00

Lol..i jsut got back from a wedding matrimony in church.. was one of the ji muis AGAIN..hehe i guess i could consider a profession in being a jimui/bridesmaid! In just this 3 months time, i have been a bridesmaid/ ji muis 3 times without fail starting from the mth of October!!!

Well, don't get me wrong!!! I truly truly enjoyed myself being a ji mui/ bridesmaid coz i felt that i was being able to share the happiness and joy of two becomes one, lol and also happy that both of them found their life partner and gone thru many obstacles and challenges together, to be able to reach the next level in a steady relationship- Married!!! Happily ever after!!!

To come to think of it, the whole process until the day you are married is quite a challenge!!!
Firstly you need to think & look for the person that you would want to love for the rest of your life! That includes loving, accepting & overlooking all, as in ALL of their weaknesses, bad habits, compatibility and whatever it takes to love someone! lol!!! in this first step itself shows how much compromising, sacrifice and undying love is needed!!!
The rest of it will be history if it didn't work out! In the process of it, some might even give up on their relationship. There you will have broken hearts. But i believe it takes two to clap and each one to do their best in loving their partner as no one is perfect.
It's matter of choice, if you choose to love someone, you'll naturally give your best and decide to love them regardless of anything. Because after you fell out of love, the only thing left in a relationship is commitment to one another and a strong decision to love your partner!!! There will be days that your partner will appear less attractive or less lovable, but as you have decided in your very heart that you are gonna love your partner, you will have the will power and determination to love him/her even more though he/she might be 'ugly' at times!!!
It is not something to be taken lightly, because it involves lives, a person life-emotionally,spiritually & physically!!!

lol..getting blur haha lack of sleep..i slept bout 3am ytd and woke up at 630am today to be jimui!!! another few more hours till Wedding dinner!!! GTG!!! ZzzzZzzzzzZ

Getting Rid of Fear & Anger

2009-12-16T07:27:00.001-08:00

You are here: God >> God Help Me

God Help Me – Getting Rid of Fear and Anger
Each one of us has a particular level at which our emotions overflow and we cry out, “God help me!” We may have just received disappointing results to a medical test or some devastating news from a family member. Our emotions are a mess! We don’t know if we’re angry, panicked, scared, fearful of the future. . .we do know that we can’t continue on our own strength.

Sometimes these emotions are too much for us to handle and they spill onto others. When first diagnosed with cancer, I was fearful of going blind. I vented anger at my caretakers. Did you ever notice that fear and anger are siblings? Harsh words are exchanged between individuals, fearing betrayal in their relationships. Fear concerning a medical test generates anger when cancer is confirmed. It doesn’t even matter if the anger/fear is clearly justified . . . it still continues to ferment.

Destructive fear (worry, panic, suspicion) is generated from anticipation of the unknown. We all like to be in control of our circumstances. (And doesn’t it just make you angrier when you can’t be in control?) But when I compared my minimal human capabilities to that of an all-knowing, all-powerful, all-present God, I surrendered my control. Suddenly my fears (and anger) diminished (Psalm 131:1-2).

God Help Me – Finding a Life That’s Worth Living
When you cry out, “God help me,” do you believe that there is a more fulfilling life ahead? A relationship with a dedicated and loving Heavenly Father changes your worldview from a temporary to an eternal perspective (2 Corinthians 4:17-18). The relationship that you develop through knowing God’s Son, Jesus Christ, as your Lord and Savior renews you mentally and physically.

You can’t change the world around you until you change your world. We can choose to live in disobedience to God’s plans -- living in sin (Romans 3:23). Or we can ask for forgiveness and thank Jesus Christ for sacrificing His life as payment for our sins.

“This includes you who were once so far away from God. You were his enemies, separated from him by your evil thoughts and actions, yet now he has brought you back as his friends. He has done this through his death on the cross in his own human body. As a result, he has brought you into the very presence of God, and you are holy and blameless as you stand before him without a single fault" (Colossians 1:21–22).

By accepting Jesus as Lord of our lives we are born again -- members of God’s family -- with the guarantee of eternal life in heaven. “For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life” (John 3:16).

God Help Me – Making the Right Choice
God is eager to help you (Romans 5:6-11). He loves you so much and doesn’t want you to go through this trial alone.

All you need to do is believe. Pray a simple, sincere prayer: “Heavenly Father, I believe Your Son Jesus Christ died on the cross for my sin and was raised from the dead. I confess and ask forgiveness for my sins. Thank You for forgiving me and loving me. Help me to live a new life that pleases You, as a new creation in Christ Jesus. Sustain me through this circumstance. It is bigger than me and I can’t do it without You. In Jesus’ name, amen.”

If you decided to become a child of God today, welcome to His family. He will never leave you. Hebrews 13:5: “For God has said, ‘I will never fail you. I will never forsake you.’”

As a way to grow closer to Him, the Bible tells us to follow up on our commitment.

* Get baptized as commanded by Christ.
* Tell someone else about your new faith in Christ.
* Spend time with God each day. It does not have to be a long period of time. Just develop the daily habit of praying to Him and reading His Word. Ask God to increase your faith and your understanding of the Bible.
* Seek fellowship with other followers of Jesus. Develop a group of believing friends to answer your questions and support you.
* Find a local church where you can worship God.

Grow in God-A good one!!!

2009-12-16T07:24:00.000-08:00

Growing With God

If you've asked your questions, discovered the answers and gone from an intellectual belief in God to a personal relationship with Christ based on heartfelt faith... then now is the time to jump in and see how to grow in your relationship with God!

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* Worship: Worshiping GOD as a Christian is not just about singing, fasting and praying. GOD is not interested in what you do as much as why you do it. HE does not honor hypocrisy -only a heart devoted to HIM. Worship is not something you just do on Sunday… it is a lifestyle. We are to love, trust, obey, praise, thank and live only for HIM every day. It is about surrender. It will cost you your self-centeredness. We are to worship in spirit and in truth. We were made specifically to bring GOD pleasure and glory.

* Fellowship: Fellowship is all about doing life together during the good and bad times. It is about being genuine, transparent and vulnerable in the things you share in confidence with others. It is about loving your neighbor as yourself. It is about encouraging others and sympathizing with their feelings. We are all part of GOD's family and he wants us to grow in our love for others. True love is about forgiveness and reconciliation.

* Discipleship: Discipleship is about growing and maturing - it is the process of becoming like Jesus Christ. Growing is not easy - it takes work and commitment. It requires us to examine and change the way we think, feel and act. Thankfully HE also gives us HIS Spirit and HIS Word to transform us into the image of Christ. Additionally GOD uses other people and circumstances in our lives to help us grow through trials, temptations, and troubles.

* Ministry: Ministry is all about serving and giving. As Christians we are called to a ministry in the body of believers and a mission to the world. Each of us are shaped and gifted by GOD to fulfill our part in HIS great plan. Find the blessing of losing yourself in serving Jesus by serving others. Though we are saved only by HIS grace HE also calls us to good works - not to earn salvation but to encourage and equip the body of believers. Ministry is about serving an audience of ONE!

* Evangelism: Evangelism is about sharing the love of Christ with everyone. We are all commanded to go and make disciples. This is our mission as Christians and it is not an option. In fact, it is a profound responsibility, the greatest privilege, and the most incredible honor in the entire world. This mission is the greatest thing you can do for another person, carries eternal significance, and is the true secret of being blessed! In these sites we will teach you to share the gospel and to develop your own life message.

http://www.allaboutgod.com/grow.htm

Replay-Sean Kingston

2009-12-16T06:39:00.000-08:00

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everydays
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everydays
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

Remember the first time we met
You was at the mall wit yo friend
I was scared to approach ya
But then you came closer
Hopin' you would give me a chance

Who would have ever knew
That we would ever be more than friends
We're real worldwide, breakin all the rules
She like a song played again and again

That girl, like somethin off a poster
That girl, is a dime they say
That girl, is a gun to my holster
She's runnin through my mind all day, ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everydays
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everydays
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

See you been all around the globe
Not once did you leave my mind
We talk on the phone, from night til the morn
Girl you really change my life
Doin things I never do
I'm in the kitchen cookin things she likes

We're real worldwide, breakin all the rules
Someday I wanna make you my wife
That girl, like somethin off a poster
That girl, is a dime they say
That girl, is the gun to my holster
She's runnin through my mind all day, ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everydays
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everydays
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

I can be your melody
A girl that could write you a symphony
The one that could fill your fantasies
So come baby girl let's sing with me
Ay, I can be your melody
A girl that could write you a symphony
The one that could fill your fantasies
So come baby girl let's sing with me

Ay, na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Shawty got me singin
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Now she got me singin

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everydays
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everydays
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

Whatcha say??-jason derulo!!!

2009-12-16T06:35:00.001-08:00

[Chorus]
Wha- wha- what did she say?
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did.
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is.

[Verse 1]
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryna please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should've treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you (for you)
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

[Verse 2]
How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you were meant to be together

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

[Verse 3]
Girl, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cause things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cause things ain't right

[Hook]
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do (I just didn't know what to do)
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So baby watcha say!

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE

2009-12-10T20:11:00.001-08:00

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

You know this could be something

'Cause everything you do and words you say

You know that it all takes my breath away

And now I'm left with nothing

BOYS LIKE GIRLS & TAYLOR SWIFT

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Well maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,

The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste

You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away

I think of you and everythings okay

And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Well maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you

'Cause baby two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And I've figured out with all that's said and done

Two, is better than one

3 Great wishes of Alexander The Great!!!

2009-12-08T02:56:00.001-08:00

A VERY GOOD READ.... SOMETHING TO PONDER ...

There is very instructive incident involving the life of Alexander, the great Greek king. Alexander, after conquering many kingdoms, was returning home. On the way, he fell ill and it took him to his death bed.

With death staring him in his face, Alexander realized how his conquests, his great army, his sharp sword and all his wealth were of no consequence. He now longed to reach home to see his mother's face and bid her his last adieu.

But, he had to accept the fact that his sinking health would not permit him to reach his distant homeland. So, the mighty conqueror lay prostrate and pale, helplessly waiting to breathe his last.

He called his generals and said, "I will depart from this world soon, I have three wishes, please carry them out without fail." With tears flowing down their cheeks, the generals agreed to abide by their king's last wishes.

"My first desire is that," said Alexander, "My physicians alone must carry my coffin."

After a pause, he continued, "Secondly, I desire that when my coffin is being carried to the grave, the path leading to the graveyard be strewn with gold, silver and precious stones which I have collected in my treasury."

The king felt exhausted after saying this. He took a minute's rest and continued. "My third and last wish is that both my hands be kept dangling out of my coffin."

The people who had gathered there wondered at the king's strange wishes. But no one dare bring the question to their lips.

Alexander's favorite general kissed his hand and pressed them to his heart. "O king, we assure you that your wishes will all be fulfilled. But tell us why do you make such strange wishes?"

At this Alexander took a deep breath and said: "I would like the world to know of the three lessons I have just learnt.

I want my physicians to carry my coffin because people should realize that no doctor can really cure any body. They are powerless and cannot save a person from the clutches of death. So let not people take life for granted.

The second wish of strewing gold, silver and other riches on the way to the graveyard is to tell people that not even a fraction of gold will come with me. I spent all my life earning riches but cannot take anything with me. Let people realize that it is a sheer waste of time to chase wealth.

And about my third wish of having my hands dangling out of the coffin, I wish people to know that I came empty handed into this world and empty handed I go out of this world." With these words, the king closed his eyes. Soon he let death conquer him and breathed his last.

i just am emo & stress!!!

2009-12-01T03:28:00.000-08:00

arghhhhhhhhhhhh woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo..why am i just happy for that one Saturday of RY & JW's wedding? why cant i be happy like that every single day?

wooo u know wut i want
u know what i meant
dont try to act as though u dunno
dont let me be like a radio

i only want what i want
not what i dont want
cant u understand me
cant u just agree?

i ain't going in rhymes
it's just plain obvious
since u are God
Pls dont be bad!!!

Rueh yinn & Juleen's wedding..weeee...

2009-11-28T08:57:00.000-08:00

First of all, i know it is quite late now as it is 1222am already, and im really exhausted and lacked of sleep from EMERGE and other activities as well but i still chose to write this entry!!! =]

I just want to say that im really honored and felt it was such a privileged to be bridesmaid to my dearest bro and sister's wedding, Rueh Yinn & Juleen!!! Both are such beautiful sweet couple!!! Truly and sincerely love them and wish them a happily ever after and heaven on earth marriage!!! =] Woke up today at 5am to get ready and prepare to get going to be bridesmaid!!! =] Waited for Keng Fong(such a sweet pretty gal) to picked me up at 6am to go together to the bride, Juleen's house in BU. Reached there bout 7am i guess as we were bit lost on the way to her house. (Well u know me, i do not know how to drive so kinda poor in the sense of direction. Got my make up done by Alicia, seriously good make up artist!!! Got my hair done by Lex as well, He's a pro in hair styling and creative industry!!! ya and he's hosting his own hair show event in church tmw at 730pm as well!!!
To cut the long story short, i kinda look beautiful and awesome with those professionals!!! =]

After that, we headed to the kitchen to make 'delicious' food for the bridegroom and his heng tais!!! =b This is where we bridesmaid & ji muis are pro in!!! =]

Game1: We had them wearing bras with oranges in it and panties, bridegroom, Ruehyinn ran in a slow motion holding a card with Juleen's name. Recorded. Collected Angpow!!! Stg cleared! ( This was da most funny part)

Game2&3: We had boiled eggs placed into plastic bag, tied with tali rafia to their waist, and had them peeling the eggs shell by hitting the eggs to the wall!!! haha

Game 4: FEar factor food challenge!!! hhee yummylicious huh?
Sweet-crush chocolate+condensed milk+ sugar+ cornflake+ polo sweet+etc- molded it all in cute shapes!!!
Sour-apple cider + assam
Bitter-bitter gourd juice+ ( chinese medicine) – blend it all together
Spicy-mash potato +wasabi+chilli flake+dried chilli+chili padi

Yeah while i was preparing the spicy stuff, Juleen's PoPo stood beside me and tested the food. She said nt spicy sudd she saw chilli padi in it, she said wow so many chilli padi, take it out(in cantonese) hehe i kept saying nt spicy, lol she reached her hand in and took out the chilli padi!!! lol..me and other ji muis were speechless!!!

Game 5: Prepared special bra with 2 holes + 2 milk bottles. Asked 1 guy to be the ‘lai ma’ and all of the heng tais finished up the 2 bottles of milk (special
ingredient). The 'lai ma' which was william, was really funny!!! such 'sisi' post when he was breast feeding other heng tais!!! haha

Game 6: Banana waxing, AAll the heng tais folded up their pants, chose the hairiest guy to hold
banana with his mouth while the other heng tai peeled off the banana using his mouth and swallowed the whole banana. While they were in the process of peeling banana, we sticked strip wax on both heng tai and gave them a surprise

Game 7: Love song + treasure hunt in 0 degree, this round was the final round to the bride's room! The bridegroom placed his feet into the bucket of ice and search for the right key to open the bride's door,(while doing this, the other heng tais gotta sing a song with the words we gave them, can't remember the all da words though, some of it was blue,disgusting, hamsap, morgan-our chc guard, sailormoon and so on, so they composed it with the black eyed peas song-tonight's gonna be a good night(my alarm clock=b)heard them sang tonight's gonna be a blue night, tonight's gonna be disgusting..bla bla..bcoz we hamsap thats why we love sailormoon n so on) he reaches for the wrong key at first, then we gave another attempt, picked the right key and opens the door..tadaaa!!! happily ever after!!! gave her a kiss!!! sweet!!! Seldom see them being so affectionate but today is really hmm special? duh!!! Wedding day, only once a lifetime definitely must be super affectionate even more than ordinary days!!! =b

Headed to chc, and watched the whole communion over again..=b hehe VERYY SWEET!!! more so when the newly weds are very close friends of mine!!! =]i guess the difference between a christian and non christian weddings are that, you can feel there is sense of eternity and that it's not just another gathering of celebration but there is an eternal vow which we are held accountable to God, and a sense of security that God will watch over our marriage and guide us no matter what happens, and Pastor would also be our counselor if we have no Godly people to turn to, coz if u turn to ur friends, they will just give u worldly advices like 'aiya smoke and drink all u want, problems will disappear tmw, dun think too much lets be happy or they might just advice u aiya there's many girls out there why wanna be sad over her, just fei/divorce her la?' wow VERY scary kinda advice!!!

After the ceremony in Church ended, had a good chat with keng fong over lunch at Papparich( i just do nt know why i love old taste, old town, papparich,k3k, prob it's kinda chilling & i love Coffee,talking bout coffee,i drink coffee everyday bout 2 cups of it..syookkkkk lol started this addiction bout a mth ago)

Reached home bout 3plus, bath without washing my hair coz tot wanna keep my elegant hairstyle for the wedding dinner, chatted with mum on the bed and fell asleep for like 10 mins, woke up and quickly change clothes for the wedding dinner as alicia picked me at 440pm!!! ohh guess what? my elegant hair became sarang burung-bird nest ah!!! aiyorr!!! then before getting into ali's car i quickly plucked out all da clips from my hair, and tied it like sailormoon hair!!! my gosh!!! that's the only thing i did to be able to save myself!!! This ali laughed non stop at my hair and my just woke up face!!! =( (oh ya i found a clip at the back of my hair after the wedding dinner haha =b)

Reached there, quite a number of friends commented on my 'sailormoon' hair!!! lol they said nice!!! wow i couldn't believe my ears seriously!!! =b haha not bad after all!!! had presumptuous dinner, and during the slide shows of the newly wed, i saw my pictures!!! one of it was from another wedding dinner we attended while most of it was shot during day time in church!!! At the end of the slideshow, my beautiful face was there!!! hahhaa well..everyone said i look soo pretty there!!! hmm i want my that particular pic, how do i get it i wonder!!! After the dinner has ended, pastor Kevin saw me and he said hey Jen-li u look sooo pretty in the slideshow!!! *shy shy* i said thank you hehe and i turned away..go back home =b heheeeee..

Just wanna say thank you Lord for the wonderful day i had!!! thank you Lord that i was so happy and joyful today thanks to someone's prayer!!! so touched!!! =]i thought i was gonna be sad in another wedding..hehee..yeah i really had fun today!!! =] amen!!! next mth i've got another invitation to be ji muis..wow i seriously dont think i want..wanna retire as my mum said if you be a bridesmaid for more than 3 times, it's harder for u to get marry!!! woo scary and worried!!! =b hehe..so far i was the bridesmaid for my aunt, for today's wedding and ji mui for YeeLin's wedding!!! total 3 times right??? can't be anymore!!! =b though i seriously seriously enjoyed being one!!!

Ps: probably i should consider a profession in bridesmaid or weddings!!! =b hehe i totally enjoyed & it's something i really enjoy!!! weeee =] Guess Rueh yinn is right bout me so alike 27 dresses, the main character!!!

2009-11-10T03:21:00.001-08:00

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Love at first sight?

2009-11-05T08:12:00.000-08:00

In her recent interview for Playboy, cover girl Marge Simpson revealed how she knew Homer was the man she’d marry: "Well, when the doctor said I was pregnant, I heard a voice saying, 'That's the man you're going to marry.' The voice was my mother's."
Sigh. Whatever happened to love at first sight? After all, fairytales lead us to believe there is one special someone out there for each of us, and that we’ll know as soon as we meet him that he’s the person we’re meant to spend the rest of our lives with. But can that possibly be true? And will we really know on the spot?
Take a group of people aside and ask them the age-old question, “Do you believe in love at first sight?” and chances are you’ll walk away with a grab bag of responses. Whether it’s your neighborhood mailman or the twofaced suck-up in the office that you loathe, everyone has an opinion when it comes to this burning q. We heard from almost a hundred women and men on the subject, and while there were a few naysayers in the bunch, after reading through all the true tales of love at first sight we’re believers!
Here are 10 true tales of love at first sight:
- “I definitely believe in love at first sight - or maybe love at first meet. When I met my husband, I was immediately drawn to him, and he to me. It was like - ZOW! Who is this!? I first noticed his hands, as they fit mine perfectly. We spent the night together that first night, and have been together for over 10 years now (married since 2002). I love him more every day."
- Ada Vaugha, 38, Chicago suburbs, owner of CuteyBaby, LLC
- “When I was 18, I saw Joshua for the first time. He was standing in a doorway and I felt like I had been punched in the stomach. I looked at my friend who was standing by me and said, ‘That's the man that I'm going to marry.’ She looked at me like I was crazy and I didn't blame her - it sounded crazy to me. Then, we began dating and I broke all of the rules: I slept with him (on the first date), I told him that I loved him and that we were going to marry one day (on the second date), and then I moved in with him after we had been together for five years. After 12 years together, we are getting married in the beginning of next year. I am more in love with him now than ever. We have had our problems, but we have always worked them out.”
- Gina M. Gallo, 30, Louisiana, school librarian
- “Yes! I believe! I met my husband 16 and a half years ago when he rear-ended me in a car accident. I jumped out of the car and saw him and my heart literally stopped. Once we started a conversation, I was a goner. It was the way he looked directly into my eyes when he spoke to me. I was dating someone else at the time, but I still went straight to my grandmother’s house after the car accident and told her I had just met the man I was going marry. We’ve now been married for nine years and have a 5-year-old son.”
- Marie Melsheimer, 34, Oregon, marketing consultant
- “Absolutely, I do believe in love at first sight. I met my wife on February 15. She came for a job interview. And as soon as I shook her hand I knew I was going to marry her. Throughout the entire interview, I kept saying to myself, 'Why are we having this interview; we are going to get married.’ And did a year later! We have been married seven years.”
- James H. Solomon, II, PhD, 60, Florida, psychologist
- “I was waiting on the balcony of my apartment waiting for several fellow astronauts to arrive so that we could all go together to see Crosby Stills & Nash on June 3, 1990. As I was standing there, a guy drove up, got out of his car and looked around. I leaned over the balcony and said ‘Are you with us?’ He looked up, smiled the most incredible smile and said ‘I hope so.’ I went into the apartment and called a friend and said ‘I just saw the man I am going to marry and spend the rest of my life with.’ We moved in together in 1991 and married in 1992. And it is still amazing!”
- Dayna Steele, 50, Texas, motivational business speaker
- “I definitely believe in love at first sight, at any age! I was 59 years old when my husband of almost 25 years left me - for a man (but that's another story). Twelve days later, I joined an online dating service. Hey, life's too short, so why wait? Over a three-year period, I dated hundreds of men. Yes, hundreds. And then I met Peter. It was love at first sight. For both of us. I was attracted to his direct gaze, his instant smile and his overall presence. Now, we're living happily ever after, and I even wrote a book about it!”
- Dale Koppel, 66, Boston, author of The Intelligent Woman’s Guide to Online Dating: And She Lived Happily Ever After
- “I had my eye on a man who I thought was very attractive, but the table plan meant I was seated next to someone else at a wedding breakfast. To my surprise, I immediately relaxed, sighed and thought ‘Ah, there you are!’ I first noticed his happy energy and lovely eyes. He was talking to the girl across the table and I thought, ‘Stop talking to him. He’s mine!!!’ Soon, he turned to me and started a conversation. He was right in every way. I had dreamed of him! At the beginning of next month, still in love, we celebrate our 36th wedding anniversary. So yes, I do believe in love at first sight. In fact, before I looked at him, he just felt right – as if I had come home.”
- Ingrid Collins, 65, UK, consultant psychologist at The London Medical Centre
- “The fellow I was dating at the time introduced me to my husband in 1986. I knew within an hour that John was the man for me from a simple game of soccer with his cat’s plastic ball. We married in 1988 and are living happily ever after. Yes, I definitely believe in love at first sight!”
- Phyllis Harber-Murphy, 56, Canada, virtual assistant
- “My husband and I first met on Valentine’s Day of 1982, on the balcony of a theater called La Paloma Theater in Encinitas, California. I was enthralled by the smile that filled his entire face. He knew immediately that I was his soul mate. It took a little bit longer for me to realize it. But yes, it can definitely happen. It happened for us. We have been together since the day we first met!”
- Patty Mooney, 54, San Diego, video producer and co-owner of Crystal Pyramid Productions
- “My husband and I met at a racquetball club more than 25 years ago. I was teaching aerobics; he was on the court. As I passed by the window he was about to take a shot and took a hit instead … he ran into the glass full force. The next night found us both in a local pub, at evening’s end he offered to drive me home. Instead, we ended up in a pizza place until 3:00 a.m. and when he finally dropped me off in the wee small hours of the morning I kissed him and told him I was more than likely going to fall head over heels in love with him. He didn’t even bat an eye when he asked me to have lunch with him later that day. My 12-year-old daughter adored him and within a month we moved in together. We celebrated our 25th anniversary on August 25 and we fall in love again with every kiss.”
- Carmen Borthwick, 56, British Columbia, freelance writer

True meaning of Christmas?

2009-11-04T04:39:00.001-08:00

Have you ever wonder the true meaning of Christmas?
There is a lot of controversy and confusion in people's minds over Christmas and its meaning both in our personal lives and in the world.

When it comes to Christmas, is there anything that comes across your mind?

I bet many of you would think of Christmas as merely celebrations, presents, Santa Claus, snowmen, socks, turkey, get together, potluck, Christmas trees, jingle bells, jolly candies, parties, parties and more parties!!!
Some people feel it is an exclusively Christian holiday, holding no special meaning for them. Others believe it is nothing more than a feeding frenzy for the free market and an excuse to get people to open their wallets at every turn. Others take the viewpoint that it is a holy day that is cheapened and diminished by all the garish festivities

Well, well well!!! They truly make up Christmas season, yeah?! The true meaning of Christmas actually comes from Christ alone!!! On the 25th of December, 2000 years ago, Jesus Christ was born into the world, to bring love, joy, peace and salvation to the lost!!!It is the day to celebrate our King Jesus's birth!!! =] He is the promised son, sent by God to be the deliverer of our people. John 3:16, For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believe in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

To make it swEEt and simple, watch this, you'll get the hook of it!!! Don't forget to full blast your speaker to find such angelic beautiful voice that soothes your soul!!! * wink** wink** =]

PS: Prepare your heart, to capture the full and new meaning of Christmas!!!

NOW THAT YOU KNOW THE TRUE MEANING OF CHRISTMAS, WAIT NO MORE!!! SHARE IT WITH OTHERS!!! CARING IS SHARING ^ ^!!! =]

Tough time

2009-10-03T08:35:00.000-07:00

i didnt sleep at all last nite..it's been 2 sleepless nights since thursday..seriously painful man..it's like ur heart got 'fong sap' and its worst than that..u feel demmm sad, bitter, hopeless, lost, discourage, worst, weak, nobody will ever love me one..sighh..today i woke up super early to be the jimuis my eyes can hardly open also..coz never really slept at all..it was all lovely..i love the bride's dress so beautiful and flowy with lovely laces..wah i soo love her dress..she glows and looks soo beautiful in her wedding gown. wish to be like her!!! i carried her gown for her as it was flowy and long..=] then v played all our tricks on the best mans. the first game was all the best mans includign the bride groom gotta do a pumping of 30 times and in that same position drink pepsi thru the green stirrer/ straw for hot drinks from starbucks, after that they gotta give us angpow..very cheeky of them giving us specimen moneys and empty angpows and even RM 1..but the other jimuis demanded more so they increased until we are satisfied, the next round the ahrd boiled eggs gotta pass thru the left leg of the bridegroom to the right leg and answered some of the bride's personal data, guess what!!! He got it all RIGHT!!! it means he really love her and he did so much and is super sporting in order to get to his bride..awww how sweet!!! Will mine be that sporting next time? lol the ifnal round was he gotta drink a ginger drink, green tea,soya bean adn cucumber juice..lol..he drank it all..tadaaa..then v let him in...they were happily united together!!! AFter that we packed and left to chc, for their wedding matrimony!!! while i was watching the exchanging of vows and the couples saying i do during the death do us apart, for better or worst, for richer or poorer for being sick or healthy, i seriously cried...soo emoo!!! but then i sucked it all in again!!! tahan!!! i was sooo touched and felt soo happy for them, at the same time i felt sooo sadddd..coz i dont even dare to dream i will ever get married also..my dream of 121212 is all gone..also will anyone wants me or loves me for eternity..sighh i wonder if all girls think alike or am i the only honest girl here!!! then there were 2 lighted candles, each the bride and bridegroom took one candle and lit the middle candle, while Keith said now may both flesh be join as one, body soul and mind, tadaa only 1 join together candle there!!! Awwwwwwwwwww so sweeetla..

bla bla bla..after that i went home and auto lock my room and just sob theree for hourss and so happen chatted with a friend from vine st. church!!! Felt better then!!!

Family and i went to tanjung harapan to celebrate bro's 21st birthday!!! The food was super deliciouss!!! We ordered quite a variety of dishes. We ordered lobsters, so huge, fried honey sotong, mix seafood, butter chicken, asam fish head, kangkung belachan!!! Ah i forgot my taufu..anyway i was too full seriously full as potion was big!!! Would say it was a presumptuous meal, really!!! Bill was quite ex! =b but it's alright!!!! wanted to bring tanglung to jalan jalan but nobody wanna jalan with em sob..so happen jo called me and complain so much bout her work..lol ended up we were laughing on the phone!!! not a bad day!!! =] hopefully i will get better in time!!! =] amen!

help him amen

2009-10-02T09:18:00.000-07:00

Dear God, i pray and i pray for him to do well in cpa exam!!! I pray for flying colours and good results, i pray you'll grant him wisdom and understanding. i pray he'll be disciplined enough to study and not to drink tea or hang out always.i pray he will be a good boy. i pray for good health, i pray that he will pray to u and seek your help and put u first as well so that everything else will fall in its place. i pray that he will always be in good health and heal the rashes, lord. By faith, he will be healed completely. i pray you'll always love him and give him time no matter what. i pray he'll experience u truly. i pray for inner peace within him. i pray u'll take away his sadness and bitterness and hopelessness. fill him with your peace and love lord. i pray his family will always be in good health and prosperous. bless my friend lord. in jesus name, amen!!!

sighhh

2009-10-01T07:40:00.000-07:00

sighh this sat i've got to be jimui..sigghh i really am afraid im too emotional..im afraid ill suffer coz im suffering rite now..ill be thinkin im so weak nobody wants to marry me..then sun night ive got wedding dinner..sighh how horrible ill be feeling on the inside..sighhhh...jen-li!!! no matter what just act happy tho ur bleeding on the inside!!! u can do it!!!

Birthday!!!

2009-09-07T08:49:00.000-07:00

i seriously thought i was gonna hv the most loneliest and sad bday ever but it turns out the total opposite..they celebrated my bday during leaders meeting and i've got a really cool bag, on friday during cell group and i even got sabo by my cell members =( it was fun though coz how often do you get to taste whipped cream on your-just-washed-hair-before-going-cell group? lol!!! yeah and the whipped cream taste good!!! a modern wallet to match the bag i've got as well!!!

on saturday..i was kinda depress and miserable actually coz i had misunderstanding..so actionla 1 min got plan ed :( and i thought it was gonna be a normal every yr kinda bday thingy no diff at all..sighh..i was wanting to be surprised on 12 am by HY,060909..but it turns out i just got a phone call lol..anyway total misunderstanding!!! my close & best friends-p6 was really reaalllyy soo niceeeeeeeeeeeeee..they took me out for dinner at dave in one u..we had pork knuckles, some carbonara, fishy thingy, chicken thingy and pizzas..lol couldnt remember the names of the dishes..and each of us had 2 big glasses of ice lemon tea and honey lemon..it was really a big feast..(that;s why im soo fat now7/9/09.) we catch up quite a bit they were sharing bout taiwan trip as they just got back..woo i totally missed it!!! then after dinner we walked a lil bit in one u and i said i need to go home already( coz i was act hoping for a surprise at home).

we headed back to subang, we went to baby t cafe at the apartments below beside carrefour! we chilled there for quite some time and i kept asking to go back home as i really cannot take the smokey area..goshh my whole face skin condition got worst coz of the cigars and hair smells of smokes..i seriously hateee cigars and smokes..coz im really very sensitive to them as well. arggh i just hate it! and it's not cool to watch them smokin also, they might think its cool but its totally NOT!!! Wasting money, shortening life and killing lives!!! anyway back to the topic, hehe yeah sudd they brought cakes out for me..weeeeeeeee and sang happy birthday song..wow i was really touched suchh good and close friends..i really love them sincerely & appreciate our friendship and miss those times we had together p6, though i felt out of place at times coz well prob ppl change and we all have our own set of lives?

yeah and i was alsooo blessed that all my friends, hi bye ppl and coll wishing me a happy bday! my facebook itself is filled with wishes!!! my hp didnt stop ringing with calls and msgs!!! =] so blessed!

after 12am they dropped me back home, and i was preparing to sleep..but bro not back yet..and there goes my worried mum..making me worried as well when im seriously dead tired..i kept assuring her that my bro will be back in no time..but there she goes kept on and on worrying till i've to act so cold by saying aiya u call thousand times also he wont pick up as his phone silent mode and he wants to have his so called 'teenage life' so why not just sleep..its already 2.30 am and i need to go church tomorrow!!! she said i was being insensitive and heartless and dun care bout my bro! gosh..but what can i do? i just don't want her to worry so muchhh and unnecessarily that is why im telling her as though it's no big deal! my bro got back at 3 am and guess what? they had an argument which last bout 30mins..after that mum slept straight, left me feeling helpless and even more depress coz why why its my bday why..i already felt depress and heartsick coz of the misunderstanding i had earlier which i felt emotionally wreck the whole day and night tho i was out celebrating with my close friends..then family at home also like that..sigh i cried silently thinking why should i be born today..why do i need to live..why do i need to go through life till i fell asleep around 5am i guess..the next day jo picked me at 1030am to go for church service..

after that..i thought it's gonna get worst coz it's compulsory to attend career talk as im in one of the leaders/core/interns group...sighhh..it ends at 530, i wanna go out celebrate and spend more time with h2y as i never had a bday celebration with h2y before, to make it more worst..when we ate at old town,my mum called saying my aunt's coming to visit me she wanna take me out for a nice lunch for my bday..then i ask my leader do i really need to go for the career talk later? yeah he said i need to as it is compulsory if ur not going u better find a good reason to tell south zone leader as he's not gonna cover for me, sighh soo depressla..my bday also have to go this kinda boring thingy summore im soo sleepy and tired didnt get enuff of sleep ed! gosh totally devastated..sighh..then i thought well well there goes my bday-saddening horrible lonely ridiculous..wooo..crying in my heart!!! the career talk ends at 530 but i left at 515 coz i need to rush home to get ready to celebrate my bday with hy!

when i got home, my aunt was still in my hs..lol happyyyyy..then we ate ice cream cake together(aunt,mum and i) as i really wanted an ice cream cake coz i never tried before!!! it was soo delicious and it was soo warmth.. a small piece of ice cream cake shared among the three of us!!! there..i felt soo much better..not so sad already! wee

after sharing the cake and catching up with aunt for a lil bit..i rushed to bath and get ready as i dont like to keep ppl waiting actually..then we headed off..

in the car i felt really horrible as we talked about the misunderstanding on sat..sighhh sobz..i was holding my tears sooo soo hard actually..but i just cant take it alreadyla..bla bla bla thankfully it's solved!!! then i was passed with a parcel of present-i love the card sister gave to me soo sincere and sweet(she made herself as she is learning to make) and the top as well!!! weeee

then we head on to klcc to walk around a bit..and had our aunt annie's hotdog and lemonade keke..after that..i was supposed to guess the place..the clue'can only go at night one' lol i thought it was revolving tower or the lil genting which i heard my fren telling me can see kelip kelip at nite dunno whether lying to poor innocent me or not la..but i bet it's to go there to be bitten by mosquitoes only..
then tadaaaa..sudd i felt the familiar road..i knew it's luna bar!!! sooo cooolllllllllllllll la!!! i actually wished to have my birthday party at luna bar last yr hehe with my first someone special la..=b

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i was soo happy when i got there even more happy that ahem had planned to brought me there!!! i really really really heart hy!!! it wass soooooo beautiful romantic and soooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet of dugong gosh!!!

to realised not much food choices, we headed a few floors down and had thai food..yummmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..pad thai, tomyam rice, tomyam soup and curry duck lol..seriously full but superr delicious man!!!

after that we went up back to the same spot in luna bar as we booked the place earlier..soooo niceee..i drank some choc vodka cocktail..lol..i seriously dont think i can drink those i rather drink coffeee or wine..as i really think the taste is weird..we chilled there for quite a few hours and watched a lil of 27 dresses and hottie and nottie..lol..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..we headed to our car park at level 6(same no with my bday) to go home around 11 plus 12..

i seriously am so touched and really enjoyed myself after the career talk!!! so sincere and sweet and thoughtful la!!! muakksssssssssssssssssss!!! =]besides that, i've loads of wishes, greetings, cards and also presents!!! today i celebrated my bday with my family.. we had an awesome lunch together tho it was bit exp!!! i had an awesome dinner as well..i really love my auntie cooking..i love the carrot soup, the steamed fish and lol duck again(itchy ditchy)!!!

it was really an awesome different loved bday!!!

next week..swt another yr older

2009-08-31T06:28:00.001-07:00

sighh i really do not know what i want for my bday anymore!!! =b i guess all i want is to have my mr right with me always, to always love me for who i am, to always be happy together,for the well being of his family & friends, for my friends to always appreciate our friendship coz it meant lots to me tho i dunno why im drifted apart from them, for my family to always love one another, support one another, for my bros to be good brothers to me and obedient son to my parents, for me to be good sister and a good daugther, for my dad to be a loving husband to my mum and a good role model/ father figure for us, for my mum to be a good loving mum to dad and good mother to us, for us to live happily always free from worries and burdens and financially rich once again, for us to be able to communicate and love and care for one another and to express ourselves well!

For me to excel in my career & hv a super bright future, to earn loadsss of finances so that i can be the one to be a blessing to every single soul, that me and my family will have soo soo much, abundance in every good things that v can hardly contain, that when we lend things to ppl, we will never even have to ask them back!!!that i can do cell group in my hs, that i can always invite frens/ or relatives for meals and hang out!

for me to be be closer to trust in God even more not to worry or take things and keep them to myself, for me to run my christian walk well, hopefully to bring glory to God!!! for everyone to be happy!

amen!

reflection

2009-08-31T05:07:00.000-07:00

im getting older next week..sighh..i felt like i've never live my teenage life enuff coz i was so mature worryin of matters like my future..
my turning point started when i was in youth camp during form 4 for the first time i hear God's voice, felt God's love and peace. God is indeed a great God!!! i still remember i was so worried that i wasted a yr during form 4 coz i was too carefree to bother bout studies.

Then God spoke to me during my quiet time with Him, if i dont do well in my spm how am i gonna further my studies. I obediently followed everything God said,i even discipline myself and set timetable and lock myself in the room to study. Throughout the whole yr of 2003/form 5 i was even more so active in chc, i served faithfully, even acted as a main actress in easter drama..i just do and follow whatever He wants me to do and i pray so much that i can hear what He tells me bout ppl, to reach out to them to help them! my dad even scolded me everytime i go chc, and he said that if u go chc summore u will fail ur spm, i was so sad actually but i know and i know that truly Jesus is my only help and refuge! i committedly attend church bout 3- 4 times a week! I was truly blessed when I was so closed to Him! He helped me lots in my studies, i even fasted television, hp and my fav food in order to starve my flesh(coz our body is weak and it always falls to temptations that way it is harder to stay focus on God and His will). In Him, there's fullness of joy, peace & love!

There was once, nearing my spm examination i was so stresed coz i think im really very stupid and i wanted to give up in studying, so happen i went to chc during youth, pastor ws preaching cnue running the race well, u'll be rewarded, He asked if anyone needs prayer lol i raised my hand but i dun dare to go out when they ask to go to the front, Aunt Jenny came pulling me out to da front, and God just spoke to me thru her- God: i know what ur going thru rite now, i want u to keep hanging on. dont give up! and also i want u to know i love u very much! i was filled with tears but i was so thankful that God hears me, He knows what im goin thru & He answers me! Everytime i hear of how God has helped my friends or ppl im filled with tears coz God is really such a loving, compassionate, kind & great God!
Finally, the day of spm results, i was at egg's hs, i was praying really hard 'Jesus pls bless me with good results, do not fail me coz i obeyed u, i go to chc so often even when my dad was scolding me, God im not a greedy person just bless me with 7 As, my fav. number!) Egg & I hurried to school, went to my class booth, there pn chong said wow jen-li im so proud of u, u've got the highest in the class 7As, on top of that i was the best student in the whole of sub arts and arts) PRaise God! He never fail me at all!!!

AFter SPM, i know very well that im not financially capable of furthering my studies bcoz coll in msia are WAY too exp. due to my circumstances. having fearless faith in him after encountering his help during my spm, i seek the Lord really hard bcoz i want to further my studies, as i know without a good education, i wont be able to succeed further in future as most ppl are now a degree holder. I somehow knew He would answer me! The first day I started working in Public Bank, i got an offer to pursue Diploma in Biz Mgmt from SEGi coll. Besides having chance to further my studies, i excel exceedingly well in them as well! PRaise the Lord! i've got 25 As over 27 subjects and an outstanding award. HE IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING despite all your circumstances. He is the LORD of heaven & earth. When ur in doubt & having fear, always know that He will never ever forsake u! He is a God who answers faith prayers. FEAR stands for False Evidence Appearing Real. So let me encourage u to never fear in all circumstances but continue trusting in Jesus!

I was truly blessed when I was so closed to Him! He helped me lots in my studies, i even fasted television, hp and my fav food in order to starve my flesh(coz our body is weak and it always falls to temptations that way it is harder to stay focus on God and His will). In Him, there's fullness of joy, peace & love! but i really thank God that i was so closed to Him during coll yrs. i find fullness, peace and joy in him despite my circumstances!!! i even thank Him from helping me fulfilling my dream to be to be an outstanding student.

I was so disappointed with my uni coz despite my resuls they never offer me a scholarship to cnue my degree! God came to my rescue, my mum closed more deals than ever to support me in my degree coz i was depressed as i applied many scholarships for degree but did nt get one as they offer only fresh school leavers! =( God was asking to trust in Him, He will help me financially!!! My uncle sponsored 600 pound~RMrm5400 for one semester exam fees also! i'll never forget that! but overall, my mum is the best mum on earth, she really help me to pay for my uni course wic cost rm 35000 just for the one yr degree but of coz if God didnt help my mum it would be impossible! rite now God is helping my brothers in college fees as well!!!

After graduation, i was quick to look for a job i kept praying for a job, within a week i got a job to work in a co which spells my name u-li, jen-li ehehee!!! i worked that for 2 yrs plus and compared to other employees there, my salary was quite good actually tho it was really low for a grad!!! God has helped me so much in my life!

But nowadays i felt im far from God, i pray less, i talk to Him less, im not that 'holy' anymore tho noone is holy except Jesus lol!!! but deep down i know God is still there for me, waiting for me to be closer to Him onc again! to want to read His word (bible) more, to want to trust in Him even more, to want to be filled with his joy, to want to have a top of world mountain high relationship with Him(i remember I used to pray to Him, telling Jesus i dont care what happens in this world all i want and need is u, i want to have a very close, top of the world mountain high rship with u Jesus coz i love u but now its fading..tho i stil love Jesus very much, i felt that i didnt put Him as my first priority anymore)!!! all in all i miss u Jesus!!! i miss those time when v are so close together! I miss hearing from u, Jesus, i miss u telling me secrets, i miss your heavenly peace in me that felt nth like that on earth! i remember Jesus always joke with me and make me laugh!!! i remember walkin in to memory lane and look at a glass christmas ball with a puppy and santa claus in it, the one u shake and u can see there's snow in the glass ball, i remember telling Jesus for fun, how i wish ill have that. it would be something sentimental! of coz i can afford it, it's only rm9, but it would be more significant to see if Jesus was listening, hehe then guess wut, on Christmas day in chc, we all brough presents to be xchange,while v took our presents ed, sudd a fren came in late..so we put back the presents v took, and reshuffle again, i got back the same present i took earlier and to MY SURPRISED it was the glass christmas ball i saw in memory lane!!! Jesus is such a joker!!! lol..i still have it with me!!! it's sentimental to me!!! =] Jesus u never fail to cheer me up and i miss u so much and dearly tho i talk and pray less to u!!!
it's tough for me God!

taylor swift-u belong with me..muakksssssss i can relate to her coz she seems juz like me!!!

2009-08-13T05:41:00.000-07:00

You’re on the phone with your girlfriend, shes upset
Shes going off about something that you said
Cause she doesn’t get your humor like I do
I’m in my room, it’s a typical Tuesday night
I’m listening to the kind of music she doesn’t like
And she’ll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She’s cheer captain and I’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you’re looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can’t you see
You belong with me, you belong with me

Walkin’ the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can’t help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey isn’t this easy

And you’ve got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven’t seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you’re fine, I know you better then that
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
[ Taylor Swift Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Shes cheer captain and I’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you’re looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can’t you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know baby
You belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you drivin’ to my house in the middle of the night
I’m the one who makes you laugh, when you know you’re ’bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me ’bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it’s with me

Can’t you see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can’t you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time How could you not know
Baby you belong with me, you belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe you belong with me
You belong with me

Keri Hilson-knock you down--emonyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i loveee this song mamamiaaaa

2009-08-13T05:36:00.000-07:00

[Keri Hilson:]
Not again
Oh this ain't supposed to happen to me

[Kanye West:]
Keep rockin and keep knockin'
Whether you're Louie Vuittonin' it up, or Reebokin'
You see the hate that they serving on a plater
So what we gon have dessert or disaster?

[Keri Hilson:]
I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids (Yeah)
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down (knocked me down)

[Chorus:]
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Ne-Yo:]
I never thought I hear myself say
Ya'll gon hate
I think I'm going to kick it with my girl today
I used to be commander-in-chief for my pimp ship flying high
Till I met this pretty little missile, who shot me out the sky

So now I'm crashing don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could go back and make it happen faster
Don't you know i would baby if I could
Miss independent, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helping me pull it, she shot bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
[ Keri Hilson Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Kanye West:]
Tell me now can you make past your caspers
So we could finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams
To seem to only date the head of football teams,
And I was the class clown that always kept you laughing
We were never meant to be, baby we just happened
So please don't mess up the trick,
Hey young world, I'm the new slick rick,
They say I move to quick but we can't let this moment past us,
Let the hour glass pass right into ashes
Let the wind blow the ashes right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
how could a goddess ask someone that's only average, for advice
O-M-G you listen to that bitch?
Woah is me, baby this is tragic
Cause we had it, we was magic
I was flying, now I'm crashing
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I'ma ask him

[Keri Hilson:]
So you gotta take the good with the bad, the happy and the sad
Or will you bring the better future then I had in the past
Cause I don't want to make the same mistakes i did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Woah, woah
I'll admit it, I was scared to answer loves call
Woah, woah
And if it hits, better make it worth the fall

(When it comes around)

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around (comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

Won’t see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love comes knocks you down

Won’t see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down

randomness

2009-08-11T05:37:00.000-07:00

As i was just checking around sudd pop out something saying God loves me and click ere your life will be change lol..God is sweet and funny at times..but im feeling bad i skipped leaders meeting today..=b no idea why prob just really dead tired..lifeless..

www.godlovestheworld.com

God Loves The World
Just as there are physical laws that govern the physical universe, so are there spiritual laws which govern your relationship with God.

1. God LOVES you and offers a wonderful PLAN for your life.
(References contained on this page are from the Bible and should be read in context wherever possible.)

God's Love
"God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life" (John 3:16 NIV).

God's Plan
[Christ speaking] "I came that they might have life, and might have it abundantly" [that it might be full and meaningful] (John 10:10).

Why is it that most people are not experiencing the abundant life?
Because...

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2. Man is SINFUL and SEPARATED from God. Therefore, he cannot know and experience God's love and plan for his life.

Man Is Sinful
"All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23).

Man was created to have fellowship with God; but, because of his stubborn self-will, he chose to go his own independent way, and fellowship with God was broken. This self-will, characterized by an attitude of active rebellion or passive indifference, is evidence of what the Bible calls sin.

Man Is Separated
"The wages of sin is death" [spiritual separation from God] (Romans 6:23).

HOLY GOD

SINFUL MAN

This diagram illustrates that God is holy and man is sinful. A great gulf separates the two. The arrows illustrate that a man is continually trying to reach God and the abundant life through his own efforts, such as a good life, philosophy, or religion - but he inevitably fails.

The third law explains the only way to bridge this gulf...

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3. Jesus Christ is God's ONLY provision for man's sin. Through Him you can know and experience God's love and plan for your life.

He Died in Our Place
"God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8).

He Rose From the Dead
"Christ died for our sins...He was buried...He was raised on the third day, according to the Scriptures...He appeared to Peter, then to the twelve. After that He appeared to more than five hundred..." (1 Corinthians 15:3-6).

He Is the Only Way to God
"Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father, but through Me'" (John 14:6).

GOD
JESUS

MAN

This diagram illustrates that God has bridged the gulf which separates us from Him by sending His Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross in our place to pay the penalty for our sins.

It is not enough just to know these three laws...

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4. We must individually RECEIVE Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord; then we can know and experience God's love and plan for our lives.

We Must Receive Christ
"As many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name" (John 1:12).

We Receive Christ Through Faith
"By grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, that no one should boast" (Ephesians 2:8,9).

When We Receive Christ, We Experience a New Birth
(Read John 3:1-8)

We Receive Christ by Personal Invitation
[Christ speaking] "Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if any one hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him" (Revelation 3:20).

Receiving Christ involves turning to God from self (repentance) and trusting Christ to come into our lives to forgive our sins and to make us what He wants us to be. Just to agree intellectually that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and that He died on the cross for your sins is not enough. Nor is it enough to have an emotional experience. You receive Jesus Christ by faith, as an act of the will.
These two circles represent two kinds of lives:

SELF

1. The Self-directed life

Self is on the throne. Interests are directed by self, resulting indiscord and frustration. Christ is outside the person's life.

SELF

2. The Christ-directed life

Christ is on the throne. Self is yielding to Christ. Interests are directed by Christ, resulting in harmony with God's plan.

Which circle best describes your life?

Which circle would you like to have represent your life?

The following explains how you can receive Christ:

You can receive Christ right now by faith through prayer:

(Prayer is talking to God)

God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude of your heart. The following is a suggested prayer:

"Lord Jesus, I need You. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life and receive You as my Savior and Lord. Thank You for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Take control of the throne of my life. Make me the kind of person You want me to be."

Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? If it does, I invite you to pray this prayer right now and Christ will come into your life, as He promised.

Did you pray this prayer?

YES
I still have questions

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oh ya..was so worried til i came up with this rap?

my darling is so sick,
it gives me a kick,
he is taking panadol,
and im getting paranoid.

lol what to add to it ya?

http://www.timeislove.com.my/my/ votee/ agree with me jelinelohjen-li5968-tiger

2009-08-11T05:29:00.000-07:00

I believe as you share your life with someone you made special, spend more time together, sacrifice your needs for their happiness, accept, understand & love one another unconditionally, generously & wholeheartedly it will definetly prove: time is love by solvil titus!!! xoxoxo posted on 11/8/09 20:19:48

I would rather take my lifetime to find someone whom i can love, share, be committed to, communicate and live with rather than mere temporary lust. i believe in eternal, sacrificial,undying & unconditional love!!! posted on 5/8/09 23:03:49

http://www.timeislove.com.my/my/

votee for me la..agreee with me..i wanna win la da watch..isshkkk how to play cheat ya? i wanna agree for myself lol..

sighh

2009-07-22T06:49:00.000-07:00

God..totally clueless..whyy God? why? What's wrong with me? Am i not nice enough? am i not good enough? am i not a good girl? am i not a nice person? why do i always have to be the nice one? always wanna see ppl happy and rejoice? always do things for ppl even at my own expense but i kept quiet all da while..God im a very simple and pure girl..i really cant take it u know..im still a small girl at heart though i have to be mature and tough at times..i've been praying this prayer for all my life..God..i want someone to love, care for me and accept me for who i am, from whr i came from, my family background, love and care for my family as well..a guy that will walk hand in hand with me, wll be there for me thru thick and thin, HE WILL NEVER LEAVE ME NOR FORSAKE ME EVER, for better or worst, put me first always,his friends are my friends,wherever he goes, he would wanna bring me along and will be sooo excited to share whatever he's going thru with me, his probs are mine, i wanna be part of his family, all i want and i would want is just to be part of his entire life as well..i really dont mind if there's ugly side i just wanna be part of his life..i wanna be there for him if he has competitions, or going thru some life changing moments or in anything at all really..i dun mind sharing his burden,support and pray for him i hope he does the same for me too out of love not because i want him to but because he loves me so much that he would wanna do it out of his deep love for me..God i know that not even one individual are the same as we are all fearfully and wonderfully made in your image but God i believe we are all different so we can complement one another and help one another to be better person and to grow in love with one another as well as you..and also would wanna make things work for the better...

Dear Jesus,
i pray you will always uphold me..heal me..be there for me..in my darkest hour i pray for ur love to be so strong in me..that ill not feel empty and lonely and i pray u'll always remove the void in my heart..the longing for someone to love me..do nt leave me..God in disneyland i made a wish..i wanna live happily ever after like the fairy tale..though i know its unrealistic in this realistic world but God i really am like that i really do believe in fairy tales and i really am childlike..Father pls pls pls dun disappoint me anymore i cant take it..father u know my heart father i really want a great husband coz i saved everything of myself only for him..father..today i heard my colleague telling me how he pampers his wife and does all the household chores and provide all her financial needs and family's need as well..and yet still LOVE HER SOOO MUCH AND IS EVEN SOO PROUD OF SHARING ABOUT HER not even doin simple thingS like folding her own blanket when she wakes up (i mean that's a lil extreme rite? how hard can it be to just fold ur own blanket..sorry to say,i was judging actually..and even if i have such a great hubby i dont think ill take him for granted coz i love him..i'll do my best to be the best wife he can ever get..pls amen) i kinda wonder will mine do the same or even better? or will he just pick on every lil tiny mistakes i did? and remember it? and remind me again? sighh..

God can i not care or be stressed and worried about my job..my family..my needs..father i pray for breakthrough in all areas i really nit that..jesus now im so afraid also i sudd remember..my 2nd assessment will be on the 25 of july..pls i pray for marks above 78..amen..pls help me in my love life...i still believe in love story..3 N..15J..1 F..dugong h2yit's where everything began..im soooo depresssssssssssssss now..sighh..i dowana think i dowana think i dowana think...dowanna worry dowanna worry dowanna worry..wanna be carefree wanna be carefree wanna be carefree..wanna be a princess wanna be a beautiful princess wanna be a beautiful princess..(i guess i msut be really sad to type nonsense)

so touched!!!

2009-06-28T05:23:00.000-07:00

what a small small world!!! was just onlining sudd alvin msg me asking me if i work in epson, i ask why? he said oh coz my friend blog about u! =b so i ask give me her blog..let me see..then i saw what she wrote!!! soo touchedd sudd..weee..glad she's happy and not alone for lunch..=] coz it can be super toughh havin lunch alone as ive gone thru it..thank God it's just for a while in my old co. then after that they all love me weeeeeeeeeee!!! (random- when i was writing this, my mum ask who brought in the rejoice bottle shampoo..it was me..i wanted to use rejoice to wash my hair the other day as im sick with sunsilk..then i press it out i saw so watery..i was thinkin such diluted shampoo so i didnt wanna use oni to discover it was termites liquid...really thank God that i didnt use that 'shampoo' man!!!lol but my dad used it thats why my mum just asked me who brought in the shampoo..oopssssssssssssssssss)

anyway, i hope i can touch more lives and be a blessing to them..amen!!!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
BoRed
When to work today as RECEPTIONIST and the very first time of my life that working could be so boring. I have no accompanist and yet all of them are working age lady and men and I somehow feel so young in that company. I'm working under Epson Company and probably my job is just transferring call.

Luckily I was lucky to know two of the staff which both of them really nice and we had lunch together as well. :)

Good thing is I wun be sitting and eating alone but having some one with me.... wheee They are really nice and if I'm not mistaken their name are JELINE & SHAN :D

Everytime I looked at the clock and then I was hoping is 6pm so that I can go back home, being as a receptionist is so boring because no one with you but luckily mei ee called me and entertaint me... <3>

Oh well, this is basically my boring job for today...

XOXO
Angie
Posted by RiotAngie at 8:29 PM

http://riotangie.blogspot.com/

Assessment

2009-06-25T07:25:00.000-07:00

sighh!!! i got my assessment today..goshh my marks is soo low..da lowest ever i just couldnt accept low marks u know coz i never get lower than 70 marks ever since form 5 crazy disappointing me ONLY!!! I ALMOST COLLAPSE WHEN I SAW MY ASSESSMENT!!! i got 63 marks for heaven's sake! i failed the assessment she says i need to get 70% but she gave me 63!!! i almost vomit blood..i ask her why cant give me higher? she said coz later the gm will think that she likes me and promote me so cant give me higher..what an excuse..and i think its unfair and judgmental also..i know that i always give ppl the impression that i dont work hard or try my best or just aint committed nor concentrating in my work.. but guess what? whole life everyone also think like that my gosh..during college yrs everyone thinks i dont give a damn in my studies but am a top achiever in da faculty of biz and accountancy BY LUCK..during spm everyone thinks im happy go lucky but when da spm results are out and i got DA best student award in da whole of sub arts and arts stream they were speechless coz they said i was laughing and playing all da way thru..come on!!! i studied and locked myself in the room ok and i disciplined myself with God's wisdom and prayers and even FASTING MY HP, TVS AND ALL MY FAV. FOODS, even spent less time going out with my family and frens..and now what? just because there are no papers to prove that i can get high scores..i got so low instead..the only good thing in my assessment is that my trustworthiness and my personality and interpersonal skills score the highest..8 marks..da rest are 6..so i ask her again so low i cant accept it ..she said i cant give u highER rite COZ THERE'S no such thing as super good..must slowly rate u..just because i looks pretty and cute and am very nice..ppl think im manja and a very cheerful person..sigh they really dunno the real thing behind it all man..i work dem hard and stress till im balding ok and my face condition is gettin worst..sighh then everyone thinks im the youngest in my family coz i just dont show them my problems or how worried i am about my future every night on my face u know..hello..im alreadyy sooo STRESS WITH MY own personal probs and family probs ok.. cant i just be happier in workplace and elsewhere..plus dont tell me u want me to spell WORRIED ON MY FACE RITE or even SADNESS? all of them really thinks that im happy go lucky, rich and manja girl man..they dont really know what is da real deal..in everything i earn and work VERY hard ok..i strive in everything i do ok..i never once had an easy life..though i really wish to have an easy life..but doubt that will happen so i can only work hard for now..in everything.. i did and done my very best ok..but somehow it just didnt show on my face so just too badla..everything i get it da hard way but ppl think its all a BED OF ROSES FOR ME..sigh what to do? praise God for a bed of roses life that is coming my way then!!! Amen super hard! =b

anyway im over it all..pheww..=b tomorrow its a new day and TgIf.. i really ate in tgif just now..lol..had a fun time after work though..weeeeeeeeeeee..tomorrow got cell group shud be super fun..coz celebrating lex bday and sophie's farewell..gonna miss sophie super loadsssssssssssss..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....i passed by poh kong..i super love the enchanted ring la..but crazy expensive RM 999..wanna buy for myself to pamper myself but come to think of it..sighh..the amt can be used to help my mum and family's needs..weeeeeeeee..lalala..anyway not that nicee also..something better's coming up..=]

all in all..had a great time and am feeling good rite now..=b

sadness

2009-06-22T07:32:00.000-07:00

i was like so happy after sat night and today i was totally down..was walking with my mum in pyramid and sigh so sad that i spent money like water..totally broke now..sighhh...i just want more of his time..dont i deserve? i understand he's busy and all..totally get that..i dunno wut to sayla..i dunno how to express myself also..prob coz i always keep things inside i seriously dunno how to defend myself also..sigh everything also my fault..whole life my fault..this wrong my fault.. that goes wrong my fault woo i dunno la..i feel like i just dont deserved to be love la..anyway no one love me also..if im good only love me..what bout if im bad? or at my worst? if i did something wrong i wont be loved..is that how to love someone? why cant i do that since so many ppl fail me? why do i stil love them? why? why cant i just do the same and love them if only they are good to me..everyone so realistic one..why in the first place am i being born in this world? do i ask to be born? do i wish to live? no rite..all i need is love..will someone just love me moree?

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-06-11T06:16:00.000-07:00

so boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg and lonely laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

woo i dowann to work tomorrwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww im boredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd eddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

i got soo manyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy invitess to go clubs todayyyy but................................................................................................................i dunnoo whyy i shud go and release actuallyyy but i dunno wut makes me stay homeeee..=b

That? = coz!!!

2009-06-10T07:38:00.001-07:00

dead dead tiredd so busy with my work gosh everywhere work..woo i dunno wut to write also..arghhhhh i love love h2y..i eat sleep drink h2y lol..

how i wish wish wish upon a falling star that he would loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee me moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee than anything else in the whole wide world throughout eternity
That he would be proud to show me off always and think of me deeply
that he would just love me unconditionally and sacrificially
that he would be sooo loyal to me all his entire life
that he would never leave me nor forsake me
that he would do little things just to please me and make me happy
that he would be consistent & persistent not just doing things 2 pls me 4 a day only
that he would pray for & with me every single day so i wont be tired and alone in praying =(
that he would always be there for me when i need u
that he would always be real and honest to me in every single area/ thing
that he would just love me and accept me for who i am, from where i came from, my family, my background.
that he would just love me for better or worst
that he would just help me out in my weaknesses
that he would just be proud and nurture my strengths
that he would not be so cold or mean to me when he is busy with work/ friends
that he would just spoil me once in awhile
that he would affirm and show me some love and affection
that he would just PUT ME FIRST ALWAYSSSSS IN HIS LIFE!!!
that he would just listen to me coz i've good intention
that he would just enjoy me for being me!!!
that he would just love me deeper & deeper each and everyday!!!

Coz when i love, i love blindly! with all my heart soul and mind! He definitely must love me with all his heart soul and mind and always and at all times and forever!!!( i don't caree)
coz i'l be dead sad and disappointed IF MY FIRST LOVE DIDNT WORK OUT..=( woo better think positive!!!
coz when i love, i give my best in everything if i could
coz when i love, i'l sacrifice doing things i like in order (eg. family trip & so much more/countless/don't wanna tell=b) to make u happy at that point of time
coz when i love, i'l love u too deep to even bother if there's world war 3
coz when i love, i'l be soo loyal and i want more of u
coz when i love, i'll be so needy of u
coz when i love, i'll fully support u even if u make the wrong decision i'l stick with u
coz when i love, i'l just hope for the best for u
coz when i love, i'l pray every every single second under my breath for u
coz when i love, i'l always be in a day dreaming mode
coz when i love, i'l be stressed out if ur having a bad or stressful day
coz when i love, i'l go the extra mile for u to make u smile though i might be silly
coz when i love, i'l be more dependent and rely on u
coz when i love, i wanna be protected in ur arms and i wanna protect u as well
coz when i love, i'l help u to be a better person to bring out the best in u COZ I SEE U R ALL TAT, the goodness & quality in u n I BELIEVE IN U SO MUCH MORE THAN I BELIEVE IN MYSELF, not changing u coz i want u to be my ideal guy(WELL, there's no ideal guy, AN ideal guy is the SPECIAL guy i choose to LOVE)

coz when i love, i'm hoping that you'l want and desire more of me coz that's what i want!!!
coz when i love, i hope that i can bring u joy and make u the happiest man on earth
coz when i love, im dead worried for u if something is not right with u
COZ IF I LOVE U, UR ALL I EVER NEED AND WANT!!!

I believe in sacrificial, unconditional, deepest and purest of love!!!

I love deeper than the oceans and higher than the heavens!!!

argghhh tireddd

2009-06-06T09:05:00.001-07:00

i couldnt sleep la God..so depress so hurt so sadd..sighh God..sudd my health become worst as well..my eyes so swollen and dry that i've to use eyedrops..my hair is dropping my nose bleeds my skin on the neck is bruised my face is getting more 'chan' ugly looking,wooo nobody loves me laterrr..or dump me laterr wooo... my head is spinning everytime and i couldnt focus at all my office workload is piling up and i dunno how to do i cant remember woo and im sooooo brokee..my lunch is about rm 15 bucks average every single day if it's not rm 25 bucks..before i even get my first salary im already struck with poverty..=( sudd everything felt so worst..im an emotional wreck everyday..my new colleagues also ask why i always looks so sad..gosh i didnt know da sadness can be shown out..i tried to be happy every day..really i tried..=( wooo sooo saddla my lifeee..why...whyyyyyyyyyyyyy..why...

so deep it hurts

2009-06-06T08:44:00.000-07:00

have u ever tried loving someone so deep but u can't seem to let go of yourself? to open up to that special someone once again..

listen to sheryl crow-first cut is the deepest..emo-nesssssssss..

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me he's the worst
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me she's the worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
'cause if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
When it come to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me he's the worst

Have u ever wanted soo much attention from someone u love but his attention is diverted to someone else like his friends? You'll always pondered if you are ever gonna be the main priority in his life besides his work, his friends, his family？ if God is the main priority in his life, i wouldn't mind..but i must be the next top priority in his life besides God, followed by his family, his work and his friends..that's a perfect placement of priority!

How deep is your love-Bee Gees

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And its me you need to show

Chorus:
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
cause were living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And its me you need to show

i guess i can be a counsellor..a good one..

Cheeky me

2009-06-04T07:02:00.000-07:00

*incident 1* lol..hehe there was this coll..he was trying to get to know me thru the older colleague which was passing down all her works to me..=b he pretended that he wanna take her out for lunch while lookin at me hoping that i'l say me too..=b but i didnt..then the following day wic was yesterday wed,june 3..when i was at her place..he sort of drop by and pretended to ask her so how u ate ur burger king? u wanna claim back from me? lol..she said tak ape..tak payah(she's a malay)..then today he drop by her place again when i was around before lunch time..he asked again so how ur burger king? u eat first then u claim back from me la..lol..i answered him straight away..u give her the money first la if not how she's gonna eat rite? hahahhaha..so cheeky of me..i actually knew he wanted me to say something like not fair..u belanja her but u didnt belanja me..keke but i just dont bother at all..this kinda guy ought to keep his word ya..though he's trying to use her with other intentions..but i make sure he keep his word by saying that' u give her the money first la...' lol keke *cheeky* this kinda ppl ya sweet talker no.1 action no.1 from the back..

incident *2
there was this guy kinda manly and handsome who came for interview today for the position of financial controller..very eligible i would say..but too bad...v are of diff religion(coz i screen thru his resume first before passing it to my general manager)..=b there goes A difference. so i dont really bother much bout him. I ushered him into the meeting room and gave him the interview forms to fill up. He started a conversation with me. He seems interested in me coz he kept smiling and sending those sparks. He started asking me questions like where i stay? where do i hang out? what i love doing? before i can answered all that..he proceeded to shake my hand to introduce himself as though i didnt knew his name from the resume..hehe i just shake it off and said am sorry it's working hours..boss will kill me if i stay any longer..=b hehe now i think back..kinda action of me to do that..=b

gosh since when did i become a man hater? =b heheeee

random #1
lol, there's this colleague of mine, she's a malay, a very pretty, funky and modern one..she's 2 yrs younger than me..and she somehow reminds me of me when i was younger..i was exactly like her..im always in my own world with my own imaginations and always knows how to have fun..being very carefree and love to laugh lots..hehe she's like that..she's really cute though.. this cleaner was talkin using sign language(mind u, she can speak, she's not mute nor deaf) just for a moment with her..then i asked her what is kak trying to say? she heard me asking what language is that..then she told me itu bahasa bisu..my goshh i laughed out loud on the spot..hahhahahhaha really very funnyyy..

random#2
yesterday(wed, june3rd09)
she was teaching me bout first aid kit, we were checking the list of the first aid kit and how many items were there. Then she was asking me how many balance pils sanket in the first aid kit ..i was confused for a moment..wondering what is she trying to asked me while she kept repeating pills SANKET..lol..then i realized prob she's asking bout pills sachet...SACHET!!! she pronounced wrongly..i burst out laughing again..i asked her wow if u repeat summore ur gonna pronounced it as SOCKET..she was embarrassed and hit me with her 'jahatla u jeline,tak mau kawan u dah' kekkeke i said sorry la..tapi benar benar geli hati i la..u kept repeating sanket i ingat apa..=b hehehe

during lunch time.. i told her wait for me i wanna go toilet..so she pressed the lift button while waiting for the lift..then when i came out from toilet i saw her looking indifferent and her action was this- she kept pressing the lift button for the lift to open when the lift closes..hahahhahahha sooo CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..lalalalaa she really reminds me of me man seriously....

hmm whr to find such songs?

2009-05-27T06:27:00.000-07:00

hmm i really wonder who is the japanese singer for countless times? i lovee the song so much.. but couldnt find..
another cute song by kat tun-rescue..

utada hikaru-come back to me(so emoo) sobs

2009-05-27T06:19:00.001-07:00

The rain falls on my windows
And the coldness runs through my soul
When the rain falls, oh when the rain falls
I don't want to be alone

I wish that I could photoshop on
Our bad memories
Because the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone

If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Baby come back to me
Come back
I'll be everything you need
Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
Boy, you're one in a million
Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
I'll be everything you need
Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
You're one in a million

Memories I have of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this
And she buys that
Just leave her alone

I wish that he would listen to her
Side of the story
It isn't that bad
It isn't that bad
And she's wiser for it now

I admit I cheated
Don't know why I did it
But I do regret it
Nothing I can do or say can change the past

Baby come back to me
Come back
I'll be everything you need
Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
Boy, you're one in a million

Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
I'll be everything you need
Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
[ Utada Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
You're one in a million
One in a million

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I'm sorry but
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity got the better half of me
Baby take it easy on me

Anything from A to Z
Tell me what you want to be
I open my heart to be
You are more priority
Can't you see you punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me

Baby take it easy on me

Baby come back to me
Baby come back to me

Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
I'll be everything you need
Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
Boy, you're one in a million

Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
I'll be everything you need
Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
You're one in a million
One in a million

Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
I'll be everything you need
Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
Boy, you're one in a million
One in a million

Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
I'll be everything you need
Come back
Baby come back to me
Come back
Boy, you're one in a million
One in a million

emo song

2009-05-27T06:17:00.001-07:00

Lyrics
(Young Jeezy & Pow La Don)

Throw yo' hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya

(Ciara)

If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you

I know you think that I just be trippin' on ya
Boy you see, this ain't how I normally be
But I can't help this jealousy
Ooh it's taking over me, ooh I'm falling way to deep
Without you by my side I feel like I can't eat or sleep

But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself

If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you

Baby, I can't help but fantasize
Wondering what it might be like
You and I sound so right
But I'mma let it go tonight, it ain't nothin'
Coverin' my eyes
Ain't gonna see it more than twice
I get it, I got it
Baby, baby

But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself

If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you

(Young Jeezy)

Alright, alright, alright, okay...
I see ya point, I must admit
I grind, I grind, I grind all day
This paper's what I'm trynna get
Now normally when I'm paper chasing, I be having tunnel vision
And if it's really like that lady, just turn on ya television
And there go Young, I said there go Young, you trynna get it did
Just know I gets it done, she love the I cheat
She love the way I move, I sha, I show it to her
Shows about 100, goon
Its blacks this, black that
Black car, black flags
I really hope that's money that ya'll got off in them black bags
808's & hearbreak, state troopers and interstates
Giving me a bad vibe, guess I'm just a bad guy

(Ciara)

Throw yo' hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya

Destroy she said

2009-05-22T19:44:00.000-07:00

muahh i just lovee this sweet and catchy voice..wonder who sang this song..
was watching this youtube of korean pretty chics and da song just turn me on..so search for da lyics..hehe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VIRGht3vKzU&feature=related
Like towers falling down
Like a bomb blast in your town
Like a hostage tied in chains
I couldn´t forget your name

Destroy, she said
My love again
The end will come quickly

Don´t try again
To make amends
You will just end up sinking

If you explode in aftermath
Don´t think you have been dreaming

Destroy, she said
My love again
When it isn´t worth keeping

Like a helicopter crash
Like a ghetto that is been smashed
Like bodies on a battlefield
I cannot live with how you feel

Destroy, she said
My love again
The end will come quickly

Don´t try again
To make amends
You will just end up sinking

If you explode in aftermath
Don´t think you have been dreaming

Destroy, she said
My love again
When it isn´t worth keeping

Not along & not apart
You finished what you couldn´t start
In the corners of the day
You catch my eye & then looked away
What a generous remark you made
When you blew it all away

Destroy, she said
My love again
The end will come quickly

Don´t try again
To make amends
You will just end up sinking

If you explode in aftermath
Don´t think you have been dreaming

Destroy, she said
My love again
When it isn´t worth keeping

Destroy, she said
My love again
The end will come quickly

Don´t try again
To make amends
You will just end up sinking

If you explode in aftermath
Don´t think you have been dreaming

Destroy, she said
My love again
When it isn´t worth keeping

Circ Ringtones
Go to Circ lyrics

holy alphabet =]

2009-05-10T06:47:00.000-07:00

Although things are not perfect
Because of trial or pain
Continue in thanksgiving
Do not begin to blame
Even when the times are hard
Fierce winds are bound to blow
God is forever able
Hold on to what you know
Imagine life without His love
J oy would cease to be
Keep thanking Him for all the things
Love imparts to thee
Move out of "Camp Complaining"
No weapon that is known
On earth can yield the power
Praise can do alone
Quit looking at the future
Redeem the time at hand
Start every day with worship
To "thank" is a command
Until we see Him coming
Victorious in the sky
We'll run the race with gratitude
X alting God most high
Y es, there'll be good times and yes some will be bad, but...
Z ion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!

"I AM Too blessed to be stressed!" The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.
The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything. Love and peace be with you forever, Amen.

Random songs~

2009-05-06T06:53:00.000-07:00

hmm..was just watching some mtv..discovered jewelry-one more time kinda cute and funky..nice chilling song..=]

another song that's stuck in my head for now is tadaaa..

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

Slow it down
make it stop
or else my heart is going to pop
'cuz it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
to be something I'm not

I'm a fool
out of love
'cuz I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

I am just a little girl
lost in the moment
I'm so scared
but don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
in the sky
just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
and synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
they've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

I am just a little girl
lost in the moment
I'm so scared
but don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

oh oh
Just enjoy the show
oh oh

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

I am just a little girl
lost in the moment
I'm so scared
but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

my favourite quotes

2009-04-23T05:49:00.000-07:00

Let Go + Learning Growth = Looking Good. (Johny Neoh-a friend from fb)

It takes but one positive thought when given a chance to survive and thrive to overpower an entire army of negative thoughts- Robert H. Schuller

Make a game of finding something positive in every situation . 95% of your emotions are determined by how you interpret events to yourself-Brian Tracy

In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure-Bill Cosby

Willing is not enough, we must do. Knowing is not enough, we must apply-Bruce Lee

Successful people pay more attention to their visions and goals than to history and the opinions of others-Alan Cohen.

To laugh is to be fully human-me =b

10% are out of our control but 90% are our reaction to that 10%. It only takes willpower to give ourselves permission to make the experience. 90/10 principles.

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass but dancing in the rain.

Time will heal you completely.

Nothing is forever so don't get too attached to it-malcolm.

what doesnt breaks u only makes u stronger.

the only obstacle in life is u. so think positive and overcome.

life must move on.

those are my quotes which i gathered after some experiences..its copyrighted..do not steal!!!

Resignation

2009-04-22T04:38:00.000-07:00

April 20, 2009

En. ***********
Human Resource Dept
…………
………..

Dear Sir,

Re: Resignation

I am sorry to inform you that with great distress that I am leaving ****** Sdn Bhd. This was a difficult decision, as working for ****** Sdn Bhd has been a great positive & rewarding experience, one for which I am truly thankful and it’s also my first permanent job after I have graduated. I have learned a great deal here, have enjoyed working together as a team with you and senior and for all the patience, time and effort you and senior invested in me, my training and advancement.

I am indeed very grateful for the opportunity to work in this esteemed Company. I truly appreciate all the guidance and friendship I gain during my tenure with this Company. Working in ****** Sdn Bhd feels like home. Everyone is like my uncle, aunt, sisters, brothers & friends. I am really very happy & comfortable working in this Company. However due to personal reasons, I need to move on.

I hereby would like to tender my resignation with effect today. As per my Letter of Offer, I have to give 1 month’s notice; my last working day will be May 20, 2009.

I wish you, senior, the Company and everyone continued success & abundance in every goodness. Should you need my assistance in any way, please do not hesitate to let me know so I can help to make a smooth transition for everyone during my remaining time here.

Yours sincerely,

………………………
Loh Jen-Li

Cc: senior

woooo..i was sooo sadd to resign..my colleagues really are such nice people..after i handed my letter to my boss, i found a note on my table sayin i love u..hehe from jesus..jesus loves u..and some smiley faces on da note..IT REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART!!! they are not even christians..and some of them even volunteer tearing my offer letter from my new company..so i could stay on..sighhh..im gonna miss them heapss..woo there's an empty feeling in me right now..

im gonna miss my senior soo much as well..ever since i joined the company..she patiently teach me guide me in every single thing..she loves me and she's always there for me..she's more than a senior..more than a colleague..she's like my sister and my friend!!! i really respect and love her..she has such great personality!!!she always share life experiences with me..enjoyed working so much as a team with her..she was so sad that i was leaving..she tried convincing me not to leave and ask if she did me any wrong/scolded me it's for my own good, that i dont have to leave the co. I was feeling for her, i reassure her that she's not the reason im leaving & im not that petty minded coz i know she wants the best for me! i can see da tears in her eyes when i told her that i had signed the offer letter in another company on tues,21st apr..after talking to her in awhile, the company called me up to ask to speak to my referral in my company to check me, so i passed the phone call to her, as she spoke bout me she teared..sigh it breaks my heart deeply to see her so sad!!! ;..( she said that im a very good employee, and that im really willing to learn, my strengths are that im good in english and helped to write most letters in my company & deal very well with foreign workers & its procedures & that im not calculative in doing more things & learning things eg. bank guarantee which is done by accounts dept was passed to me to handle and i did it very well..while my weakness is that i didnt cover the appointment letter wic was p & c & just left it on my table =b heheee..they asked if i've make any mistakes, she said of coz v are all humans but as long as she is willing to amend her mistakes im very happy with her..and for the 1st yr when she first graduated she was very fresh so she did a few mistakes but now she's really good at her job and she's doing things independently now, everything is handled by her..
sobzzz i felt soo touchedddd by her!!!i just love her!!! i pray i'l never let her down in this one month notice of leaving.... maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! gonna miss being an assistant to her as well..gonna miss following her up and down..left and right..

my hr manager never get mad at me before instead guide me and encourage me positively whenever i did a mistake, he always shows me cute faces expressions hehe..and always always makes me comfortable!!! when i gave him my resignation letter..he was soo shocked and asked me what was da reason im leaving but after sharing with him, he said he wont accept my resignation and he will keep it and give it back to me when i change my mind, he even advise me on my new job & give me some life advices.. where on earth do i find such manager? i feel like he's like a parent to me..sobz gonna miss miss him..

my beloved boss of the company, the managing director, i just love him..he looks fatherly to me.. and he is really concern bout me tho he shows it indirectly thru my hr manager and senior..he went into my hr manager room and discuss with him many times about me..and how to make me stay..he said the company would be able to accommodate me if i have any request in terms of salary & etc so that i will stay on.. SOOO SWEEEEEEEEETTTT!!! I LOVEE HIM!!!

im gonna miss accounts dept friends..they are very close to me as well..my lunch buddies..friends i can laugh with and complain to!!! =b

my swimming buddy wic is in acct. dept.. hehe gonna miss her sooo muchh..she's like my close fren..i shared my personal life stories with her and listen to her advice,she's a very nice and kind person to me..she always offer me oreos and nicole sweets and share her stuff with me..always sms me..always attend wedding dinner together..always looks pretty together..such companion..arghh gonna miss herr..

my laughin buddy wic is the senior in acct dept..gonna miss those times where i crap loads with her and make her laugh uncontrollably..very fun person to be with..and gonna miss lookin at her baby pics and listening to her tellin me bout her baby..lol she told me she was sick once and she cant stop coughing while her baby thought she was playing with him, he responded with a giggle..loll hahhahahhaa...always help me to check foreigners salary and give me foodie..=b

the gentleman in acct. dept, such real gentleman where to find such guy on earth? always open the door for us ladies, help me push compactors, take files/ heavy stuff, ask if we are hungry and always take care of our welfare..but always got bullied by swimmin buddy..lol..he was da one to write the note for me lol..prob coz i brought him to cell group once..and invited him and his gf for church events..ya and he's such a nice bf to his gf..everyday during lunch he will talk to his gf, pick her from her workplace & just being there for her..

the despatch..always joke with me..and make me feel special with their nonsense lol..hahhaha..

the cleaner..always clean my desk, chat with me, hide my doll, even tied my doll to my tupperware..poor dolly..=b hehee..then always arrange my christmas cards (tho christmas is over)& my decorations, always help me to pin up my leaves schedule wic drops down countless of time..=b

the purchasin dept..she's like my aunt..hehe she always bake cheese cakes and cakes..i love her cakes..such delicious cakes she bakes..then talks to me directly

the whole of sales dept..the sales ppl always teasing me for being so sweet and innocent..ask me to go out more often,ask me dun shy shy. mix around rather than stayin at home haha and be more open minded instead of 'conservative and traditional'

the whole sales managers who always manja me.. call me mui mui..wait anxiously for me to give me ang pow during cny..lol..always laugh at my cantonese..always disturb me asking when im gonna have a bf and when can they intro bf to me..=b hehe

the md and director..always ask me where is my mum..haven fetch me home yet？ always show concern and even watch out for my mum to fetch me home when it touches 5pm sharp..lol where to find such boss?

the sales coordinator..always sit together t eat kfc & pizzas during bday celebrations

the factories-sk & css..arghh gonna miss talkin to them on the phone regarding foreign workers and arranging procedures for foreign workers, leaves form, socso and so on

ipoh factory-arghhh gonna miss my donuttt..coz im her chocholate..arghh my best malay friend ever..i love talking and giggling with her on the phone..v exchange our salary information and performance appraisal sshhhhhhh secrett!!! p and c! my senior will kill me if she read this!!! she's such a nice person..she even sent a salted chicken from ipoh for me..awww sweeett!!! no more laughing with her!!!

juli and johny..gonna miss the two doggies..i watched their whole history..they gave birth several times..but i was there only when they gave birth for their second time..9 puppies all in..still remember i took home 2..a black and white during july07..hehe but mummy no let so i gave them away, one to my church guard, morgan..lol but he carelessly let in fled one day..=( watched them getting caught by the evill dog catchers..and auntie in office love them so much that v bought them back from the dog catchers and even get dog license for them..now they are living happily with us..in the backyard of my company..gonna miss throwing food and kfcs bone from bday celebrations and watching them jump to catch the food..=b

gonna miss eating maggi mee together with all my colleagues few times a week, gonna miss going out to take cake and collect kfcs for staff celebrations and gonna miss eating kfcs and pizzas few times in a mth due to birthdayss..gonna miss going thru the hassles of ensuring the birthday celebration..from calling the bday boy/gal if they are gonna be around in office, what do they wanna eat? and whether they want cake? ordering pizza/kfc on the phone, request for money to pay for the pizza/kfc, asking if there is anybody willing to take me out to get da foods and cakes,going out to get kfcs,choosin cake from RT cake hs is ss 15/ secret recipe in parade, place them in pantry, inform everyone da food is ere, get thm to sing bday songs and cut cake..=b miss choosing delicious cakes for everyone to eat and they really enjoyed my cake choices..=] gonna miss the toilet where i spent almost 10 mins a day due to constipation..gonna miss writing EMPLOYEES NAME IN DA PUNCH CARD WITH A LOVE SHAPE ON THEIR NAMES & get sounded by my senior =b hehe but i still do that every mth..for 24 mths now..=b hehe cheeky me~~ but i love everyone..what to do? gonna miss disturbing colleagues when im bored..gonna miss taking out passports from cupboard..gonna miss handling foreign workerss..argghh gonna miss the foreign workers agent..arghh i love talkin to them as well..such fun ppl..hehhee and great advisors..teach me how to handle foreigners..hehe..gonna miss da whole steps and procedures of handling them from sending them for fomema check up, renewing passports and levy, arranging flights and check out memo, photostating their updated passprts and gettin my hands dirty!!!
gonna miss checking 500 punch cards and calling them up if they are absent on certain days in their punch cards..gonna miss keying in their leaves in the system.. gonna miss playing detective when things goes wrong with employees..gonna miss handling personal files, gonna miss eating milo in my office pantry,gonna miss saying good morning to every single soul in my company..gonna miss miss miss everyone and everything..arghh soo misss..woo i cant move on..gonna miss going back sharp sharp at 5pm with my other coll..as my co policy is leaving at 5pm sharp lol..hahahhaa..

i need to really cherish and work and live life with my colleagues and company to the fullest till.. may 19, 09 which is my last day in my beloved company..=( hopefully they will love me even more for this last mth im working..=]hopefully we'll all be even closer than ever before..and they will love me forever and ever and me tooo..hopefully ill be able to bring them to Christ..hopefully ill be able to be a blessing to them..

pray hard i'l be able to lovee my new job and company more than this..then it will oni be fair for my new job and co..pray ill move on and be really strong as a person..pray for my new working environment to be even better than my previous then it will be heaven on earth~wink~ pray ill have great friends..great bosses and great guidance and favour to be upon me in every single way..=]

the above was written on 22nd april 2009

reminder

2009-04-07T08:27:00.000-07:00

true love! where can i find true love?

true love! where can i find true love?
Dear true love, where do i look for you?
i know that it is not searcheable because
it will come to you when the time is right
but when is the right time?
i know 19 is too young
according to most people
but i've waited for far too long
i've abstained from getting into a relationship
when all my friends jump from a relationship to another
i've never had one relationship before!
yet i believe that my first one will be the one
the one that will last thoughout eternity
i do believe in purity and innocence
i do want to have a good bf that is the right person from God
i want a pure relationship
i don't want to be like youth these days nor like my friends
i don't want to give myself to the one that is not right for me
i intend to give my virginity only on my wedding day to the right person!
where do i look for this right person?
i'm not like others
im rather conservative and reserved although i might look like an outgoing kinda chic!
so i would need a guy that would understand me!

Saturday, November 26, 2005
haha wow look at the date i posted this a few yrs back and until now im stil single sexy and a/v oh gosh i wonder if God will answer my prayers any sooner..=b (september'08 posted)

just a reminder dear gal!!!

Avalon-everything to me

2009-04-02T04:49:00.000-07:00

I grew up in sunday school
I memorized the Golden rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free

I know the story inside out I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary

But ask me why He loves me And I don't know what to say
But i'll never be the same Because he changed my life when He became...

Everything to me He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that i'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see

Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that he is...

Everything to me He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything

And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet you saying you've been...

You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything to me
Lord, you're everything to me

Depress

2009-03-22T07:47:00.000-07:00

God..i dont know why i became depress again..every single night i criedd..till my whole pillow case is wet..i just dont understandd..whyy??? whyy God? u know what i mean God!!! pls la dont be so bad to me..coz everyone else very bad to me ed..i cannot afford..God pls la dun always break my heart..im very fragile and sensitive u know..God i soo obedient to u all these yrs ed..whyy u still haven grant me my heart's desire? when is the right time??? God everything has been really bad for me..though i see the good in certain things..but God dont u think i deserve the bestt as well? coz im ur princess Lord!!! dont just bless the lives of others..what about mine?? Have u thought of me? Am i in ur list? God why do u ask me in Gal 5:7 u ran well. who hindered you from obeying the truth? Don't u already knew the answer? sighhh...

such a sweeet song..i just lovee songs, words and lyricss hehee =b

2009-03-21T00:12:00.000-07:00

skyy-real love

Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Ooh...ooh...ooh...)
It’s real love (Boy)
Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Ooh...ooh...ooh...)
It’s real love (Ooh...)

I know it’s not the first time
That you ever felt this way before
Ooh, but those memories are still lasting
Of the pain you got for your trusting
So when love calls you walk out the door, ooh, but this time, boy

Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Don’t be afraid)
Open your heart and you’ll see it’s real (Ooh...it’s real love)
It’s real love
Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Ooh, don’t be afraid now, baby)
It’s real love (Oh...oh...oh...oh...)

I’m not the one who hurt you, boy
And with love there’s no real guarantee
If you believe in what you’re feelin’
And you wanna make love to me, oh, baby

Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Yeah, baby)
Open your heart and you’ll see it’s real (Ooh...)
It’s real love (It’s time to do it right)
Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Ooh, I need you tonight, I need you right now)
It’s real love (Oh...now what you got to say, baby)

Darlin’, you know it’s hard for me sometimes to put my feelings into words
And I know because of all the hurt in my past
I tend to shy away from emotional commitments
But what I feel for you is so real and so strong
I couldn’t walk away even if I wanted to
So baby, I’m yours

Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Ooh, yeah, yeah, baby)
Open your heart and you’ll see it’s real (Ooh, it’s real love)
It’s real love
Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (I’m not the one who hurt you)
It’s real love (Give your love to me)

Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Baby)
Open your heart and you’ll see it’s real (Yeah, baby)
It’s real love (Real, real love)
Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Ooh, I need you tonight, I need you right now)
It’s real love (Come on, baby, come on, baby, give your love to me, baby)

I need you by my side, boy
Uh, let’s make it last forever
It’s real love (Don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid, no, baby)

Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Ooh...ooh...)
Open your heart and you’ll see it’s real (I’m not the one who hurt you, boy)
It’s real love (Ooh...ooh...yeah)
Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Don’t, baby, open your heart)
It’s real love (Come on, baby, come on, baby, let’s make it last forever)

Don’t be afraid of the way you feel (Time s right tonight)
Open your heart and your heart and you’ll see it’s real (I need to, I need to, I need to hold you tight)
It’s real love
Don’t be afraid of the way you feel
It’s real love

i wonder if this is real? =b

2009-03-20T04:25:00.001-07:00

Girl Facts--
.
when a girl is mean to you after a break-up
she wants you back but she is too
scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever!
.
when you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to look back
and smile
.
When a girl bumps into your arm,
while walking with you
she wants
you to hold her hand
.
When she wants a hug
she will just stand there
.
When u break a girls heart
she still feels it when
you run into each other 3 years later
.
When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her
mind..
.
When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply,,
.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of
questions,
she is wondering how long you will be
around
.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a
few seconds,
SHE IS NOT FINE AT ALL
.
When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are playing games
.
When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever
.
When a girl says she can't live
without you,
she has made up her mind that you are
her future
.
When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more
than that
.
.
Guy Facts---
.
When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you
.
When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...
.
When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong
.
When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few
minutes
he means it
.
When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do
.
When your laying your head on a guy's
chest,
he has the world
.
When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday,
he is in love
.
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he means it
.
When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you till your done
.
When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else

Love Story..

2009-03-19T04:52:00.000-07:00

wooooo..why do they always play this song??? sighhhh..But you were everything to me
And I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a Love Story baby just say yes

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said

Marry me juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talk to your dad go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

i guess i began doubting about romeo and juliet..
is there any sacrificial, unconditional love?
there's only Jesus alone who will do that for us as He has already done that and He still loves us very much and accepts us for who we really are till today..
God sent His only precious son, Jesus to die on the cross for our sins..so that we who are sinful can come closer to God and connect to God..He is our Lord and Saviour!!! =] I doubt there's greater love than this!!!

Dear God

2009-02-28T21:50:00.000-08:00

Dear God, i seriously need to ask u something Lord? Will u answer me honestly?
I really wonder if u really have someone out there for me that will just love me and accept me for who i am?
u know Lord, im really a fragile person and very sensitive&thoughtful person inside!!! tho i looks carefree!!! i dowan to be taken for granted anymore God!!!
Though i always act tough and cool and seems like I dont bother to love!!!
But my heart bleeds Lord!!!
u know im full of love inside of me and i dont dare to show it anymore but i still love ppl without them noticing coz I'm afraid no one seems to appreciate or love me for who i am!!!
Dear God u know im such a weak and innocent person inside!!!
Dear God u know when i do something i do with all my heart soul and mind and i really get hurt easily!!!
Dear God i went through so much all alone!!! I can't even share with anyone except for u!!! God u must love me more u know, if not no one else in this world will love me as much as u do Lord!!! Do not leave me nor forsake me Lord!!!
God u know everyone just know how to judge and condemn me..like for eg. always ask me why u so blur why u din do this din do that? and they always expect me to do so much!!I honestly must admit am blur at times God coz im really thinking most of the time..and i go the extra miles!anyway, God do they ever care bout me or how i feel?
Ｄｉｄ　ｉ　ever judge or expect anything from them??? no!!! i didnt!!! All i did and want is just to enjoy relationships with them and also to love everyone for who they are!!! I'm so sad Lord!!!
God when ppl are in need i try to be there for them but Lord i kept everything as in everything to myself Lord!!! I cant share with anyone coz i dont think anyone will ever understand me!!!

Dear God im so sad..im no more close with my high school friends..my 5 gals best friends..i just dunno why..and everytime we go out they will try to find topic bout religion to debate..sob..God i want them to know u coz i know u are a real God and ur loving God and they'll have a great future in u! not that i want them to change god,religion..sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..Ｉ＇ｍ　all alone!!! All by myself!!! =(

God, u know me Lord!!! when i love someone i will love with all my heart soul and mind..so father i pray that u will protect my heart Lord..never let me fall for the wrong person LorD!!! I can't take it!!! my princess heart will break anytime!!! Always uphold me Lord! Never let me fall from your grace Lord! Uphold me in every single way Lord!!!
Dear God I still Love the song " As long as you love me" by backstreetboys!!! Kiss me by Sixpence non the richest, love story by taylor swift!

God i think im also a very stupid gal besides getting 7As in SPM, best student award in sub arts, outstanding student in the faculty of biz and accountancy, and a second class upper degree in biz mgmt! i just wonder why am i still soo silly in certain things!!! I'm a straight and direct person Lord!!! I feel like i've no talent no nth!!！　Ｓｉｇｈｈ！！！　

IS it you???

2009-02-15T01:00:00.000-08:00

"Is It You?"

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say
The way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinkin' you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to
Who will stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Take for granted how much I care (how much I care)
Appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

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2008-12-27T23:35:00.000-08:00

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Christianize..randomize post..

2008-12-23T05:37:00.000-08:00

lol..today i learn a new word..when i was thinking to bring friends to church..i thought hmm how i wish i can make them all Christians..suddenly an inspiration of word came to my mind..haha tadaaa Christianize!!!

How i wish all my close friends will attend church with me every single week..
we'l go to church faithfully together, enjoying the presence..
How i wish for my whole family to be a strong and united family serving the Lord in His kingdom and glory!!!
How i wish for a God-fearing bf to faithfully go to church with me hand in hand serving Him fervently & righteously!!!
How i wish for a great Christmas this year
How i wish for so much of financial freedom to be able to bless everyone around me
How i wish to be able to invite loads of people to my house just to have a hearty meal together
How i wish
How i wish
How i wish

Christmas!!!

2008-12-11T06:02:00.000-08:00

Christmas oh Christmas,
Singing Hark the herald angels sing,
With all the jingle bells,
Dazzling decorations filled the surrounding,

Oh what such joy it is,
A new born savior our Christ,
There lay the meaning of Christmas,
As long as Christ in our heart,

Privilege to have our glorious King,
Merry celebrations everywhere,
Time to be a blessing,
Such occasion to be childlike!!!

\(^0^)/

Jeline is in such a depression state with such a depression statement on a depression month!!!

2008-12-08T07:27:00.000-08:00

I was sooo depressed till i came out with this poem in the office..sighh..here it goes..

It's a cold boring day,
or rather a dull day,

facing the screen is all i do,
waiting for 5pm to go,

wondering what to do next,
i think i'll probably text!!!

The Temptations-Yo're my everything!!!

2008-12-01T02:32:00.001-08:00

The Temptations You're my Everything Lyrics:
[Temptations:] Oo-oo-oo-oo.

[Eddie:] You surely must know magic girl,
'Cause you've changed my life.
[Temptations:] Whoo-oo-oo.
[Eddie:] It was dull and ordinary,
You made it sunny and bright.
[Temptations:] Whoo-oo-oo.

[Eddie:] Now, I was blessed the day I found you.
Gonna build my whole world around you,
You're everything good, girl,
And you're all that matters to me.

When my way was dark and troubles were near,
Your love provided the light so I could see.
Girl, just knowing your love was near,
When times were bad,
Kept the world from closing in on me, girl.

I was blessed the day I found you.
Gonna build my whole world around you,
You're everything good, girl,
And you're all that matters to me.

[David:] Baby, you're part of every thought
I think each day.
Your name is in every phrase my lips say.
Every dream I dream is about ya,
Honey, I couldn't live without ya.

[Eddie:] Baby,
[David:] Baby,
[Eddie:] Baby,
[David:] Baby,
[Eddie:] Baby.
You're my everything, you're my everything.
[Temptations:] Yes you are,
You're my everything, girl.
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/PcT1 ]

[Eddie:] You're the girl I sing about
In every love song I sing.
[Temptations:] You're my everything.
[Eddie:] You're my winter, baby, my summer,
My fall and spring,
[Temptations:] You're my everything.

[Eddie:] Now, I was blessed
[Temptations:] The day I found you.
Gonna build my whole
[Temptations:] World around you,
[Eddie:] You're everything good, girl,
And you're all that matters to me.

[Eddie:] You're my everything.
[Temptations:] You're my everything.
[David:] When my way was gone,
[Eddie:] You're my everything.
[Temptations:] You're my everything.
[David:] And troubles were near,
[Temptations:] Yes you are,
You're my everything.
[Fade.]
[David:] Don't you know, baby,
You're my everything
[Eddie:] You're my everything.
[Temptations:] You're my everything.
[Eddie:] You're my ev..

Woman/LAdy/Girls/Chics

2008-11-30T07:38:00.000-08:00

WOMAN/LADY/GIRLS/CHICS
Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her
> sperm, she'll give you a baby.
>
> If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her
> groceries, she'll give you a meal.
>
> If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and
> enlarges what is given to her.
>
> So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit.

And then the fight started (LOL)

2008-11-28T22:30:00.000-08:00

After retiring, I went to the Social Security office to apply for Social Security.
The woman behind the counter asked me for my driver's license to verify my age.
I looked in my pockets and realized I had left my wallet at home.
I told the woman that I was very sorry, but I would have to go home and
come back later.

The woman said, 'Unbutton your shirt'.
So I opened my shirt revealing my curly silver hair.
She said, 'That Silver hair on your chest is proof enough for me'
and she processed my Social Security application.

When I got home, I excitedly told my wife about my experience at the
Social Security office.

She said, 'You should have dropped your pants.
You might have gotten disability, too'

And then the fight started.....

****************************************************

My wife and I were sitting at a table at my high school reunion, and I
kept staring at a drunken lady swigging her drink as she sat alone at a
nearby table.
My wife asked, 'Do you know her?'
'Yes,' I sighed, 'She's my old girlfriend. I understand she took to drinking
right after we split up those many years ago, and I hear she hasn't been sober since.'

'My God!' says my wife, 'Who would think a person could go on celebrating that long?'

And then the fight started.....

*************************************************************************

I rear-ended a car this morning. So, there we were alongside the road and
slowly the other driver got out of his car.
You know how sometimes you just get soooo stressed and little things just
seem funny?
Yeah, well I couldn't believe it.... he was a DWARF!!!
He stormed over to my car, looked up at me, and shouted, 'I AM NOT HAPPY!!!'
So, I looked down at him and said, 'Well, then which one are you?'

And then the fight started.... .

*************************************************************************

A woman is standing nude, looking in the bedroom mirror. She is not happy
with what she sees and says to her husband, 'I feel horrible; I look old,
fat and ugly. I really need you to pay me a compliment.'

The husband replies, 'Your eyesight's damn near perfect.'

And then the fight started.

_________________________________________________________________________

A man and a woman were asleep like two innocent babies.. Suddenly, at 3

o'clock in the morning, a loud noise came from outside. The woman, sort

of bewildered, jumped up from the bed and yelled at the man 'Holy Shit!

That must be my husband!'

So the guy quickly jumped out of the bed. Scared and naked he jumped out
the window like a crazy man. He smashed onto the ground, ran through a
thorn bush, then started to run as fast as he could to his car.

A few minutes later he returned and went up to the bedroom and screamed
at the woman, 'What do you mean, ... I AM your husband!'

The woman yelled back, 'Yeah??? Then why were you running?

And then the fight started.

The God I Know!!! (God pls be more real in my life)

2008-11-28T21:58:00.001-08:00

The God I Know - CHC

-verse-
When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees

-prechorus-
I will lay down my life
For the love sacrifice
You gave to me
It's all because of You
It's all because of You

-chorus 1-
The God I know
Righteous and Holy
The God I know
Faithful and true
The God I know
My tower of Refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of the City
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me
As You are
So are we

-bridge-
This is my cry
My one desire
More of You
More of You

-chorus 2-
The Church He knows
Righteous and Holy
The Church He knows
Faithful and true
The Church He knows
A tower of Refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The Church He knows
Light of this City
The Church He knows
Strengthens the weak
The Church He knows
Is Strong and Mighty
As He is
So are we

Cs?? = Casual post? =b

2008-11-28T21:39:00.000-08:00

Well well..since i have yet to blog recently i might as well blog NOW!!! Today's topic is kinda random yeah? LOL! So is the content! =b Just sit back, relax & READ!!!
While i was thinking about Christmas i suddenly thought of this..Here it goes..

Many people will look for only 4cs in a guy/ a relationship, but as for me I would want to look for additional 3cs!!! I'm looking for 7cs in a guy, He gotta be a christian, commited, character(good"), cash, condominium, credit card & car!!! The first few Cs are rather important to me, the rest are just common & practical! =b
I love Christmas because of 7cs-Christ, Christmas tree, Church, Chocholates, Candies & Champagne!!! & not to FORGET I'm cute,childlike,conservative,caring,charismatic,classic & CREATIVE(hehe if nt i wont be having fun with Cs)

Weeee..Have a good day everyone..LOVE LOVE!!! xoxoxoxo \(^0^)/

Love Story-Taylor Swift(ahhh how sweeet..i wanna be ur princess, my prince)

2008-10-16T06:54:00.000-07:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

Life-hehe reviewing my old blog copy and paste to ere..coz i cant remember my blog's password=(

2008-09-26T23:45:00.000-07:00

life-Tuesday, February 07, 2006
life as i discover is too fragile
people come and go easily
what's the meaning of living if you dont really lived
one minute u were with that someone
and the next second she's gone
life is too meaningless
im sitting here infront of my computer screen
feeling the emptiness of this world
what is there in life i wonder?
there is no meaning to it
i wonder why is life like a circle of repetition
babies came into the world being fed and taken care of
after awhile they are teenagers and goes into schools, college and unis
started working after a matter of time to earn a living in this unstabil world
found a partner get married deliver a baby and life goes on and on without meaning
as ppl ages they are buried in the graveyard and where do they go?
its only either heaven if they accept Christ or hell if they don't
this goes on and on till the next generation
as i watch everyone and the same usual of unusual that has yet to take place
i really wonder why are we all doing the same thing in life
i sense there is more to life then just living in it
but i really need to satisfy my longing for nothing soul
i wonder how can ppl get satisfy and contented easily
its not easy for me though i need to find the true meaning of it
either the meaning of existence or merely the existence of the surrounding
i can only be satisfied then
and for now the searching will remain constant
constant enough to feel the meaning of it!

my feeligns for now

2008-09-26T23:43:00.001-07:00

haha lookin back at what i posted last time makes me feel funny..posted this on nov 2005 as well kekee..

my feelings for now
right now im totally lost
i really wonder who am i
what am i really doing here
what am i suppose to do
what am i good at

im feeling down for sure
i have no one to look to
or anyone that can share my problems
my only way to burst out
is to write my heart out

is there anyone?
that is willing to share my problem
willing to take away my cares
and serenade and comfort me
i am totally lost!

true love! where can i find true love?

2008-09-26T23:38:00.001-07:00

true love! where can i find true love?
Dear true love, where do i look for you?
i know that it is not searcheable because
it will come to you when the time is right
but when is the right time?
i know 19 is too young
according to most people
but i've waited for far too long
i've abstained from getting into a relationship
when all my friends jump from a relationship to another
i've never had one relationship before!
yet i believe that my first one will be the one
the one that will last thoughout eternity
i do believe in purity and innocence
i do want to have a good bf that is the right person from God
i want a pure relationship
i don't want to be like youth these days nor like my friends
i don't want to give my first kiss to the one that is not right for me
i intend to give my first kiss and also my virginity only on my wedding day to the right person!
where do i look for this right person?
i'm not like others
im rather conservative and reserved although i might look like an outgoing kinda chic!
so i would need a guy that would understand me!

Saturday, November 26, 2005
haha wow look at the date i posted this a few yrs back and until now im stil single sexy and a/v oh gosh i wonder if God will answer my prayers any sooner..=b

Should I Kiss The FROG??? (LOL)

2008-06-05T06:08:00.000-07:00

Haha as funny as the title seems..the reality is hilarious as well! haha as I was actually in a deep slumber sleep, all of a sudden i felt something patting me on my back twice and then i was like mumbling "don't disturb me la..i wanna sleep so tired" suddenly the final straw came in when 'he/she' thump me on my head..hahaaa.i wanted to grab 'his/her' hands already..butttttttttttttttttttttt too my HoRRRRoorrr..i felt something slimyy....yuckssss i can still imagine the feelingg.. immediately it jump off my head and land on the corner of my room!!! it was tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa..yeah u guess it RIGHT!!! It was a FROG! i screamt at the top of my lungs and so happen my mum was unlocking her room door..so i called her to Shoo the FROG away! pheWww! (As i look at my clock it's 7am Sharp and i LOVE no.7,hehe..i normally wake up at 7.30am & get ready for work as work starts SHARP 8.30am) haha Well, i'm still kinda puzzled though..

no. 1- How did the frog enter into my room? There's no way at all..the gap in between the door and the floor is so narrow..if lizards i understand but not this Medium Sized frog! Can't be from the windows as my windows pane are totally shut! WEirdd! stil tryin to figure out!

no. 2- The frog accidentally jumped downstairs to my hall from the dustbin upstairs, and it still try to find its way to jump up the staircase..seems like it's looking for me in my room again..haha even my mum laughed! So funnyla!

no.3- Tadaaa..Should i kiss it? Prob it will turn into a Prince Charming like the fairy tale story? (hahaha..yeah you wished! Though i believe in fairytale but i totally don't dare to risk my well being on kissing it..i have had enough pimples already! The last thing i need is a skin disease..choi! touch wood!!!

CONCLUSION- As i was writing this blog, i SUDDENLY REALIZED SOMETHING SIGNIFICANT! Probably, GOD IS TALKING TO ME THRU THE FROG! HE'S ASKING ME TO FROG (FULLY RELY ON GOD). WOW!!! wow!!! WOW!!! I FELT SO TOUCHED NOW AS I'M TYPING!!! SOB SOB! Nowonder i felt so happy, peaceful & excited today!!! today today is all or nothing..Praise goes out to You! Yeah all the praise goes out to You! haha God is always so funny..I love Him la..notty notty!

Every woman is beautiful!!!

2007-11-18T05:36:00.000-08:00

Every Woman Is Beautiful

A little boy asked his mother 'Why are you crying?'

'Because I'm a woman,' she told him.

'I don't understand,' he said.

His mum just hugged him and said, 'And you never will'

Later the little boy asked his father, 'Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?'

'All women cry for no reason,' was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God; and when God got on the phone, he asked, 'God, why do women cry so easily?'

God said: 'When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world; yet, gentle enough to give comfort'

'I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children'

'I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining '

'I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly'

'I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart'

'I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly'

'And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.'

'You see: The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.'!

'The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart
* the place where love resides.'

CAUTION:::DEAR GUYS OUT THERE PLS PLS PLS APPRECIATE YOUR WOMAN!!! BE A MAN!!! OR BE DOOM!!!

What type of beauty are u?

2007-03-12T08:53:00.001-07:00

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about...
One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup
That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though
You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

Which Victoria's Secret Angel Are You?

2007-03-12T08:42:00.001-07:00

You Are Most Like Heidi Klum

Girl next door vibe with top model looks

Which Victoria's Secret Angel Are You?

how girly are you?

2007-03-12T08:37:00.000-07:00

You Are 64% Girly

You're a pretty girly chick, and you're not ashamed to admit it (or wear pink).
But you're also practical. You can hang with the guys, as long as they're not too gross!

How Girly Are You?

hmm..i would say this is veryyy truee..hehe..well most of them are true though..

what cut of jeans should u wear?

2007-03-12T08:33:00.000-07:00

You Should Wear Stovepipe Jeans

Sophisticated and classic, these slimming jeans look great in almost any context.
Pair them with low heels for a very classy yet casual look.

What Cut of Jeans Should You Wear?

What does ur fav outfit says about u?

2007-03-12T08:31:00.000-07:00

What Your Pink Outfit Means

Unsurprisingly, you are very sweet and cute.
But you're also a bit of a tease - and not that innocent.
Shy but sexy, you're an alluring mix of contradictions.

Designer match: BCBG

Signature accessory: Tortoise shell sunglasses

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

haha..well i just love pink and am shy!!!

what colour heart do you have?

2007-03-12T08:23:00.000-07:00

Your Heart Is Red

You're a passionate lover - you always have a huge fire in your heart.
Too bad it's hard for you to be passionate about just one person!

Your flirting style: Outgoing and sexy

Your lucky first date: Drinks and dancing

Your dream lover: Is both stable and intense

What you bring to relationships: Honesty

What Color Heart Do You Have?

wow..luckily my heart is red in color haha..same as my physical heart colour..where it is scientifically proven to be red!!!

What kind of a seducer are u?

2007-03-12T08:12:00.000-07:00

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

hehee...=]

What kind of intelligence do you have?

2007-03-12T07:57:00.000-07:00

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

What should i study? hmmm...

2007-03-12T07:55:00.000-07:00

Your Learning Style: Personal and Passionate

You are very flexible and curious about the world. Human understanding is very important to you.

You Should Study:

Anthropology
Architecture
Art
Art history
Art therapy
Classics
Counseling
Foreign Languages and Literature
International Studies
Linguistics
Literature
Psychology
Sociology
Teaching

What Should You Study?

communications?

2007-03-12T07:52:00.000-07:00

You Communicate With Your Body

This isn't as bad as it sounds, it just means that you're a "touchy-feely" person.
You need a lot of affection in your life. And for you, this means both giving and receiving little touches.
Warm hearted, you bond with people easily. In fact, you often feel a little sad when you're not in the company of others.
A little moody, you tend to be controlled by your emotions. But a bit hug always comforts you!

How Do You Communicate?

haha didnt know such thingg..coz didnt hug beforee kakaka...

are u hot???

2007-03-12T07:50:00.000-07:00

You Play it Cool

You're not in your face, smokin' hot... and it's all by design
You have a carefully crafted cool persona, leaving everyone wanting to know just a little more.

Are You Hot?

Personality cluster!

2007-03-12T07:42:00.001-07:00

Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Intuition

You are:
Multilayered and complexInspired and driven to achieve your goalsA visionary with a complete life planIntuitive enough to understand difficult problems, ideas, and people

What's" Your Personality Cluster?

what do ppl think about my face?

2007-03-12T07:37:00.000-07:00

At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable.
Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.
With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress.
hehe..seems real? ig ot it from this website! check it out!
http://www.blogthings.com/whatdopeoplethinkofyourfacequiz/

Leaving a footprint

2007-02-02T23:02:00.000-08:00

Today I’m taking a journey…
Down by the oceans side
To admire Gods... many gifts
So vast, far and wide
On this most beautiful…of summer days
I’ll let the wind blow kisses…Upon my welcomed face
While feeling so wonderfully… surrounded
By His love and amazing graceShould you walk by today?
And see me gazing upon the horizon…
Past that vast and sparkling sea
If you look real close… at me
You'll see... I’m giving all my thanks to Thee
As I take a tranquil walk… by the shimmering shore
I’ll listen to the seagulls… as they gather above
Hearing the sweetest of songs…I think my heart has ever heard
There, the Lord and I... Will share a walk once more
We've walked these shores... together
Many times in my bless filled life…And I always walk away…Feeling so totally amazed
How God… can touch my heart each time
In such a beautiful and wonderful way
As I leave my footprints…Upon the softness… of this sand
If your eyes should perceive… all alone I stand?
Look again, with your heart… and there you'll see
I’m holding onto firmly… His ever gentle and guiding hand
By Brenda Conley © 2005

Singapore trip...for someone's sake..

2006-06-18T09:39:00.000-07:00

<---Took in the bus
haha here goes another tale of me in Singapore..for my bro(porcelain in a potrait sake). I went there on the 9th of June which is a friday! My aunt and I travel there with a first coach bus..our journey starts at 9am throughout the journey I was so restless as it is 5 hours ride. Basically u r stuck in that bus with nothing in hand to do. Is like ur in a desserted island. Out of boredom, I started chatting with my aunt..we had a really good conversation and we felt tired so end of conversation..guess what we did? lol of course we took a nap for about half an hour! don't uget the hint- felt tired? Besides that..we did the most logic thing..which is EATT!!! we ate(chocs, dodol, biscuits,bread&more)all the way after our short nap for bout hmm3 hours!Our mouth cant seem to stop..eating talking eating talking..that's what we do best! Finally we reach hmm the first coach agency another branch in singapore(Novena Square) at 230pm. My uncle picked us up from there and we went to fetch my lil cousin Yvonne! She was soo happy and excited when she saw me! Her mouth didnt stop at all..goes on and on telling me about her life in singapore and everything about singapore as if i don't know anything! haha of coz i knew coz my uncle always told us about her! We went to eat again! I ate mee siam and aunt ate curry laksa! We went straight home to uncle's hs at Jurong West! Had our shower and a quick rest. We went shopping after that(Jurong point)..Hmm tried some clothes over there..veryyy niceee..but too expensive can't afford..its bout RM 250..so forget it..went to another shop called pedder..the clothes variety there quite nice..not very expensive..just nice for my budget..it's bout RM 85 for a top..haha i wore that to Esplanade..in the post before this. After a good time shopping..v went home to jurong and had a good chat to catch up with my uncle ,his wife and Yvonne(their daughter). Slept at 2am that night! That's bout my first day in singapore!

Life!!!

2006-06-18T09:30:00.000-07:00

life as i discover is too fragile
people come and go easily
what's the meaning of living if you dont really lived
one minute u were with that someone
and the next second she's gone
life is too meaningless
im sitting here infront of my computer screen
feeling the emptiness of this world
what is there in life i wonder?there is no meaning to it
i wonder why is life like a circle of repetition
babies came into the world being fed and taken care of
after awhile they are teenagers and goes into schools, college and unis
started working after a matter of time to earn a living in this unstabil world
found a partner get married deliver a baby and life goes on and on without meaning
as ppl ages they are buried in the graveyard and where do they go?
its only either heaven if they accept Christ or hell if they don't
this goes on and on till the next generation
as i watch everyone and the same usual of unusual that has yet to take place
i really wonder why are we all doing the same thing in life
i sense there is more to life then just living in it
but i really need to satisfy my longing for nothing soul
i wonder how can ppl get satisfy and contented easily
its not easy for me though i need to find the true meaning of it
either the meaning of existence or merely the existence of the surrounding
i can only be satisfied then
and for now the searching will remain constant
constant enough to feel the meaning of it

Singapore trip=Great pic!

2006-06-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

WEll, well well! what have we got HERE? lol its a pic of me! takeN in Esplanade somewhere in Singapore couldnt really recall where is the location. I think its somewhere near Marina Bay, Suntec City..we need to cross through some interchains before we reached there. FYI, Esplanade is some sort of an art muzium where there are beautiful artistic pictures and meaningul nolstagic words and printings. u know? the only muzium that is shaped like a durian. It's a tourist attraction place. That picture on the left is one of my fav. lol! looks like im playing with a skeleton sort of dino huh? haha yeah..just posing..poser me..Below that particular picture, is another one of me taken with the words. I kinda fall in love with the words..some sort of love at first sight thingy.. ahha but this is with WORDS not HUMAN! It says there"BROKEN SMILE IN THE TAINTED HEART OF SPRING" lol besides those arts.. I must admit that I looks gorgeous there!

ahh.yeahhh..i had a bad day!!!

2006-05-18T09:18:00.000-07:00

Argghhhhhhhh!!! Just feels so right listening to this song..as the lyrics goes....

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on
Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad dayYou had a bad day
Will you need a blue sky holiday?The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't knowYou tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a rideYou had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day(Oooh.. a holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the bling
And the whole thing turns out wrongYou might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong(yeah...)So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad dayYou're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad dayYou had a bad day

yeah! really had a bad day! evryday is a day for me! when will i be freE? i need so much freedom! to get outta of this shell!